"Hmm… I… I see… heh… cough… hm… hehe…"
The transparent Ren Yuan couldn't stop the wide smile on his lip, at the same time ignoring the crimson color on his pale cheeks with his long eyelashes fluttering with a hint of shyness and happiness.
"If I didn't experience what happened between us… I'm not sure if I would have easily fallen for you in this life. You could say, it was because of you, that I can feel such emotion for the first time in my life."
Shao Cheng decided to be more honest, and open his heart to the Ren Yuan before him.
And it was not because he didn't need to feel the fear, anxiousness, and dread the same way he felt toward the person in his arms.
He just decided that the Ren Yuan before him completely deserved to hear his genuine thoughts after what they experienced throughout their life and for everything the man had done for him.
"Honestly, I don't want to fall in love... I consider such deep feelings as bothersome and troublesome to deal with. And it was something that could get in the way of what I wanted to do. Because I have always believed that 'love' will turn me into a fool."
Of course, the main reason is that I fear such emotion the most…
"Well… you always have problems getting close to others before. So, I have already considered that there is a low chance of you falling in love. At least, I am content to know that no one was able to get your heart. It would have devastated me if that were to happen."
I would have gone crazy.
Ren Yuan blinked his eyes while the expression on his face remained the same, the happiness and joy didn't lessen one bit even after what he heard, rather, it increased instead.
Because, despite what the man is saying, it doesn't change the fact that a budding feeling has already grown in his heart.
"As for being a fool because of loving someone, Cheng, I am happy to turn like a fool for you."
Although I endure a lot and experienced difficulties throughout my life, but, I am still grateful to have experienced falling in love with a person.
"Cheng, not once did I ever regret falling in love with you."
So, being almost similar to each other, I am quite sure that you too, will never regret falling for me in this life.
"... I see…"
Shao Cheng's emotional sapphire eyes reflected the man's figure, while there was so much he wanted to say, and he wanted to make the man happier, something he has never been able to do before but time just doesn't allow it.
"Can… you answer an important question too?"
There would be no other chance to ask this question if I miss this chance...
"In the year 1xx, when I was sixteen years old, in a small town miles away from the Snow Mountain, I almost died from drowning in the freezing river…"
I want to know… what really happened back then…
In my investigation about your life, there is a time in which you have lost some memories during the ambush that almost took your life in the Snow Mountain after being betrayed by a close friend.
If that were really true, did you somehow manage to remember your missing memory again?
"Are you the one who saved my life?"
"... Ah… it seemed that something really changed… Did you return back during that time?"
After remaining quiet for a few seconds, Ren Yuan finally decided to tell the truth, it was the most important secret he had always wanted to reveal but had never gotten the chance to do so.
Because everything was already far too late when he finally remembered the forgotten memories.
The two of them can no longer turn their back to the path they have chosen to walk, they had already long chosen their sides, and so many people had been sacrificed to suddenly stop and change it.
Especially, when he understands that the man would never believe his words at all after everything that they have done to each other.
The man has always been stubborn and hard to change his mind, especially when he is blinded by the people he cared about and extremely overprotective.
"It seems that we are fortunate at the timing of you coming back again, huh?"
Ah… It would have been wonderful if the situation was the same during our time though...
Just one mistake, one misunderstanding, and one moment of missed chance had led us to a different future.
"... I was able to remain conscious for a bit longer instead of waking up from the high fever when I was rescued by 'someone'. This time, I wasn't utterly ignorant and made a mistake of recognizing a different 'savior'."
"There is no need to explain it. Cheng, I'm just glad that you don't have to be fooled by that person again. And I'm also happy that I didn't seem to have forgotten the real-time where we first met in our life seeing that you are rather close to my young self."
The transparent Ren Yuan felt his time is almost up despite desperately wanting to talk more to the person he dearly misses, completely wanting to remain by his side for as long as he could exist.
… I really don't want to leave...
Ren Yuan's eyes flicker as those thoughts flash in his mind before showing a worried and concerned expression on his face as he stares at the man, which will once again face countless difficulties and hardships in his life.
… I want to help him too...
"Hey, Cheng, don't be a fool this time, alright? Don't follow the wrong person again. Seeing you die once right before my eyes is enough, don't let 'myself' experience it again... And there is no need to repeat the same ending, so be careful of being betrayed, alright?"
"Don't worry… just as I promised you before… I will follow you this time."
"...! Oh yeah! I almost forgot! Yes, that is definitely the best idea! Hahaha! Cheng, you won't regret following me! I will definitely take care of you! Even if the 'me' doesn't know it, but, I will definitely never let you experience the same situation again!"
You won't definitely be betrayed and poisoned to death!
You will live until your hair turns white!
Ren Yuan raises his head and laughs out loud, his grey pupils brightening up with utter happiness and joy after receiving such an answer, the overwhelming worries, and concerns that remain in his heart finally decrease a bit.
As for why it didn't entirely disappear, of course, because he would continue to worry about the man's well-being.
Especially when he knows all the kinds of trouble the man experienced before, particularly when troublesome situations seemed to like to follow him around.
Throughout Ren Yuan's entire life, he had never seen someone get into trouble as numerous as the man is!
"... Are you going to disappear?"
Shao Cheng finally couldn't help but finally ask his most important concern when the man's transparent figure became dangerously weak.
"Hey, Cheng, it seems you have forgotten what kind of a person I am. Do you think I would allow myself to disappear just like that? When did you see me behave nicely and reasonably? I won't go down without fighting! Hehe!"
The transparent Ren Yuan grinned so wide with his grey pupils flashing with determination and resolution as he swiftly shot toward the unconscious Ren Yuan with the purple and gold aura chaotically swirling around him.
"I won't feel at peace without leaving something behind!"
This is definitely going to be helpful when you need it!
There are so many unexpected situations and uncertainty in the future, it doesn't matter how experienced you are!
At least, let me help you out the best I can!
"Cheng, I believe in you!"
Then dual aura swiftly accumulated in one place, turning into a swirling circle of power as the transparent Ren Yuan completely entered his young self.
And before Shao Cheng can react to the sudden change of situation, the unconscious young man in his arms suddenly snaps open his eyes.
And the swirling dual-colored flashing in the grey pupils completely allow Shao Cheng to quickly figure out that it wasn't the Ren Yuan of this world, but the Ren Yuan of the previous life that was conscious.
So when he felt a hand gently caress his cheek, he could only remain frozen, completely remain calm, and thought of how to react in the sudden situation, especially after hearing the person speak with overwhelming tenderness.
"Don't worry, in this life, you will definitely be the winner!"
I understand a bit of what you needed to do… Shao Cheng, in this life, you will definitely become a great Emperor.
Feeling the warm cheek, Ren Yuan's eyes flicker with certain thoughts while feeling his consciousness quickly disappear.
After all, he wasn't the real owner of the body, at the same time, the world doesn't allow him to replace his younger self unlike the man's chance of coming back in time again.
Ren Yuan isn't special and fortunate enough to experience rebirth.
There is a feeling of sadness, but at the same time, also a hint of relief at the thought that he couldn't really live in this life.
Nonetheless, a mischievous grin forms on his face, causing Shao Cheng, who understands the man the most, to tense up.
And yet, Shao Cheng was unable to fight back, well, most likely, he didn't have the will to fight back when he was flipped and pushed down in the bloodstained pool by the grinning Ren Yuan of the previous life that is controlling his young self.
I'm sorry to my young self…
The previous Ren Yuan thoughts, as he finally succumbed to the temptation and selfishness, as he lowered his head to quickly capture the tempting pale lip of the person he had always wanted to own.
But well… I'll just take the first kiss… since my young self will get the rest later on… fare share right?
And with that, Shao Cheng experiences being pushed and pressed down by the previous Ren Yuan and is finally conscious enough to remember and experience their kiss with each other.
Of course, Shao Cheng remained paralyzed with wide surprise and shocked eyes with various emotions rolling in his heart as the gentle kiss swiftly turned deeper, becoming frenzied and desperate as it completely ravished his lip.
And in the uncontrollable deep kiss with the man's body pressing over Shao Cheng's body, the soft and gasp of broken farewell clearly reach his ears.
"... Cheng… b-bye…"
… Goodbye… Ren Yuan...
At that moment, before the dual-color completely disappeared in the man's eyes, Shao Cheng's hand swiftly moved, grasping the back of the man's head and pushing their face closer before directly entangling the slippery tongue moving inside his mouth with his own.
Shao Cheng's consciousness has been overly stressed and obviously exhausted by all that occurred, which is also beginning to become blurry.
Especially when he doesn't need to worry about the powerful curse anymore since it has already been dealt with after hitting Ren Yuan remnants inside him.
So, there is only one thought that swiftly flashes in Shao Cheng's mind during the entangling of lips and tongues, which was to also react to the man's desperate kiss, because it will be their last.
So, without hesitation, the two young men in the bloodstained pool with a small hill of dead bodies to their sides, completely immerse themselves with each other.
One person's consciousness is completely fading from the body he is using, while the other consciousness is slowly disappearing because of overwhelming exhaustion finally reaching his limits.
At the exact time, the two of them soon lost their consciousness, of course, there is also a situation that the two people completely ignored, or didn't have time to seriously think about during their limited time with each other.
Huh... What is this soft and warm feeling… so slippery and felt wonderful… but there is also the taste of… blood?
Hm…? Taste…?
"...!!!"
The pitiful Ren Yuan woke up with his consciousness back to find himself pressing 'Whitey' body with his lip constantly moving around the young man's lip.
And the most worrying part is the fact that the young man seemed to have lost consciousness.
What Am I Doing???
Have I Lost My Mind???
Did I Somehow Got Possessed And Began To Ravage 'Whitey'???
SOMEONE, PLEASE TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED WHILE I'M COMPLETELY UNCONSCIOUS!!!???