Back Memory Lost - Chapter 100: Memory Lost - Chapter 87: My Sorrow Part 1

Chapter 100: Memory Lost - Chapter 87: My Sorrow Part 1

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Chapter 87: My Sorrow Part 1

It's past 10 pm as Bai Jin Xi walks into the station with Han Chen carrying a box of barbecue skewers.

Han Chen has no opinion on she delivering some late night snacks to the Black Shield Team. They're going to get married sooner or later, so how could he not be happy about her showing the responsibility of being his wife?

Bai Jin Xi isn't thinking as deeply into this as he is. She just happens to have eaten some very good snacks and wants to share it with Xiao Zhuan and the others.

The night is quiet and the office building is sparsely lit. They push open the office door while holding hands, and the first thing they see is Xiao Zhuan and the others busying themselves in front of their desks.

Xu Nan Bai is also here. This is a rather surprise to Jin Xi.

The lights are bright. Xu Nan Bai is dressed in his usual casual jacket and shirt and is wearing a pair of gold-rimmed glasses while talking to Chatterbox leaning over the table. He is holding a stack of paper as he discusses them over with Chatterbox. His sleeves are slightly rolled up, revealing the watch and Buddha bead bracelet on his wrist, making him look elegant and intelligent.

Everybody turns to look hearing the noise.

"Ah! Leader, Xiao Bai! Aren't you guys off on a honeymoon for these few days?" Xiao Zhuan is the first to jump up from his seat. He rushes over to Jin Xi and examines her neck, "Mm, the wound has gotten a lot better now."

He doesn't watch his mouth at all. Besides causing Bai Jin Xi to feel a bit embarrassed, the other guys in the room don't show any change in their expressions. Even Xu Nan Bai, who's not a member of the team, is showing a polite smile.

This is obviously a publicly known secret now.

Jin Xi tosses the snacks at Xiao Zhuan, "Shut your mouth. Eat it while it's hot. It's good stuff!" Xiao Zhuan and Chatterbox are in cheers and start to set up the table by laying newspapers over it.

Han Chen walks up to Cold Face's desk, "Is everything going well?"

Cold Face replies, "We have completed gathering evidence at the scene as well as looking up all the information on Xin Jia in regards to her life. Our current progress is going just the way we expected."

Going the way they expected means that the killer is a professional. There'll be some challenges in finding him directly.

Han Chen wasn't expecting that they would be able to solve the case overnight. They're not up against one person; they're up against an entire organization. He nods and looks towards Xu Nan Bai, "Professor Xu, how come you're here as well?"

Xu Nan Bai smiles and takes the grilled shrimp skewer that Chatterbox is passing to him. Even when he's eating street food, he still gives off a graceful aura.

"My family and Xin Jia's family can be considered as old friends and keep in touch. Therefore, now that this has happened to her, whether it's for work or for personal reasons, I should also contribute to the case," his eyes show a hint of grief mentioning Xin Jia.

Han Chen and Jin Xi both nod. Chatterbox butts in, "Professor Xu has been helping us with giving our condolences to the family, and he is also working on Xin Jia's psychological analysis report. He's helped us a lot."

Jin Xi says to him smiling, "Senior, thank you!"

Xu Nan Bai smiles nodding. He fiddles with the Buddha bead bracelet with his fingers looking peaceful.

Han Chen and Jin Xi stay for a while before leaving holding hands. As they walk down the stairs, Jin Xi's phone rings. She holds it up to see who it is, and it's actually Zhou Xiao Zhuan texting her:

"I have a feeling——am I going to become a (God) uncle soon? I can feel that the atmosphere around you two is different!" And then it's a very perverted smiley face.

Jin Xi presses her lips together into a smile. Just when she's about to reply back with "F–k off," Han Chen takes her cell phone. He takes a look and then taps on the keyboard with his long fingers: "How is it different?"

Jin Xi pinches the back of his hand and snatches the phone back, "You're so hateable! Why did you have to ask him?!"

In the office, Zhou Xiao Zhuan is standing by the window looking down at the street lights below and the shadow of the two of them walking together. He can't help but sigh, "They're such a great match."

The others lift their heads and also look at the couple. They all reveal a smile.

"Yeah," Chatterbox supports, "Every time I see them, I wish that they would hurry and get married and grow old together." He thinks for a moment and continues, "Heh. This is really like that saying: the emperor isn't in a hurry, yet us enriches are so anxious about it (idiom)."

Everybody bursts out laughing. Cold Face says calmly, "You're an enrich."

Chatterbox realizes his silliness. He gives himself a slap, "My bad. It was a mistake, okay? I'll go buy coffee to ask for your forgiveness. Who wants one? Cold Face will definitely want one. Xiao Zhuan is a goodie-two-shoes, so he will definitely not want one. What about Professor Xu? Oh, I'll have to get one for Forensic Investigator Xu too."

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Morning of the next day, on the flight to Beijing.

There aren't a lot of passengers, and there aren't a lot of people around them, making the cabin feel quite empty. Jin Xi is sitting by the window staring blankly at the layers of clouds.

Han Chen puts his arm around her shoulders, "What are you thinking about?"

Jin Xi turns around to look at him and answers honestly, "I'm thinking about what kind of person I was like before. What were my mom and dad like. If they saw me, would they recognize me."

She sounds a bit depressed nonetheless. Han Chen stares into her glittering dark brown eyes and then looks up straight as he says in a calm voice, "There's no doubt about you. You were more delicate and loved acting like a spoiled child before. Your straightforwardness and violent behavior should be the same."

Jin Xi is humored by his teasing, "Get lost!"

A hint of a smile also brushes across Han Chen eyes. He squeezes her hand and says, "Your parents must have doted you to have been able to raise such a delicate daughter."

Jin Xi lets out a soft "Mm" and becomes quiet.

The plane soon lands on the ground. Han Chen fetches their carry on from the top. He pulls out a pair of sunglasses, puts them on and gives her a pair as well. Jin Xi takes them. They're planning to keep a low-profile in Beijing this time.

They exit the airport and sees many cars and people coming and going. Jin Xi takes a look at the crowd behind her; some are in a hurry, while others are standing around waiting. She says in a low voice, "Do you think that the seven-member organization would be following us right now?"

Han Chen doesn't answer, nor does he look behind him. His face looks colder with his sunglasses on. He leads her to a cab holding her hands.

When the cab approaches the second ring road of the city, Han Chen tells the driver to let them off. He then takes her to ride an extremely crowded bus.

Jin Xi is completely enclosed by him as she holds onto the handle above their heads and asks softly, "Where is this bus heading?"

Han Chen glances at her and answers, "My home."

Jin Xi is stunned, "We're going to your home?"

"No, it's a smoke bomb."

The bus comes to a certain stop. The people who need to get off or on are done and the doors are closed. The bus' engine growls and is about to move forward again, but Han Chen shouts suddenly, "Mister driver, I need to get off!"

The doors open again with a thump. The bus driver scolds, "What were you doing before? Now you tell me you want to get off."

Han Chen pulls Jin Xi's arm and gets off the bus quickly. And then he stands at the platform and looks back at the bus.

No one is getting off behind them.

Jin Xi smiles slightly——if anyone follows them now, wouldn't they be exposed?

They wait until the bus drives away. He holds her hand and they enter the busy subway station.

They switch their form of transit like this a couple of times. No matter how persistent their followers may be, this should be enough to get rid of them. It's an hour and a half later when they finally arrive at the front entrance of the National Public Security University.

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Memory Lost — Chapters

Ch.1 Memory Lost - Chapter 1: A Beauty as Always Jun 9 Ch.2 Memory Lost - Chapter 2: Underhanded Tricks Jun 11 Ch.3 Memory Lost - Chapter 3: Forensic Investigator Si Bai Jun 11 Ch.4 Memory Lost - Chapter 4: First Dream Jun 11 Ch.5 Memory Lost - Chapter 5: Criminal Investigator Han Chen Jun 11 Ch.6 Memory Lost - Chapter 6: Beginning of the Battle Jun 11 Ch.7 Memory Lost - Chapter 7: Your Brokenness Jun 11 Ch.8 Memory Lost - Chapter 8: Handsome bastard Jun 11 Ch.9 Memory Lost - Chapter 9: My Capability Jun 11 Ch.10 Memory Lost - Chapter 10: The Suspects Jun 11 Ch.11 Memory Lost - Chapter 11: Between Time and space Jun 11 Ch.12 Memory Lost - Chapter 12: My True Love Jun 11 Ch.13 Memory Lost - Chapter 13: Brother Han the thirteen Jun 11 Ch.14 Memory Lost - Chapter 14: Black Gloves Jun 11 Ch.15 Memory Lost - Chapter 15: His Tenacity Jun 11 Ch.16 Memory Lost - Chapter 16: Obsession + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.17 Memory Lost - Chapter 17: Reflection of Beauty Jun 11 Ch.18 Memory Lost - Chapter 18: Prologue to T Jun 11 Ch.19 Memory Lost - Chapter 19: You Step Forward I Step Back Jun 11 Ch.20 Memory Lost - Chapter 20: So Gentle Jun 11 Ch.21 Memory Lost - Chapter 21: As Cute as Her Jun 11 Ch.22 Memory Lost - Chapter 22: The Sophisticated Me Jun 11 Ch.23 Memory Lost - Chapter 23: Working Together Long Term Jun 11 Ch.24 Memory Lost - Chapter 24: Sniping Heaven Jun 11 Ch.25 Memory Lost - Chapter 25: Jin Xi’s Grief Jun 11 Ch.26 Memory Lost - Chapter 26: A Series of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.27 Memory Lost - Chapter 27: Turbulences in the Background Jun 11 Ch.28 Memory Lost - Chapter 28: Soaring Little Bird Jun 11 Ch.29 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.30 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.31 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.32 Memory Lost - Chapter 30: Drinks for Today + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.33 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.34 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.35 Memory Lost - Chapter 32: My Hero Jun 11 Ch.36 Memory Lost - Chapter 33: Falling into Deep Sleep Together Jun 11 Ch.37 Memory Lost - Chapter 34: Praying Mantis Preying on Cicada Jun 11 Ch.38 Memory Lost - Chapter 35: The Beginning of Death Jun 11 Ch.39 Memory Lost - Chapter 36: Possible Light Jun 11 Ch.40 Memory Lost - Chapter 37: Admiring Heart + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.41 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.42 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.43 Memory Lost - Chapter 39: A Bunch of Idiots Jun 11 Ch.44 Memory Lost - Chapter 40: Him Alone Jun 11 Ch.45 Memory Lost - Chapter 41: T’s Torture Chamber Jun 11 Ch.46 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.47 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.48 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.49 Memory Lost - Chapter 43: Perhaps It’s You Jun 11 Ch.50 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.51 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.52 Memory Lost - Chapter 45: Feelings for Each Other Jun 11 Ch.53 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.54 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.55 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (1 or 2) Jun 11 Ch.56 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (2 of 2) + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.57 Memory Lost - Chapter 48: Come Home with Me Jun 11 Ch.58 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.59 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.60 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.61 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.62 Memory Lost - Chapter 51: Mentally Ill Jun 11 Ch.63 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.64 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.65 Memory Lost - Chapter 53: The Spirit of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.66 Memory Lost - Chapter 54: Painstaking Investigation Jun 11 Ch.67 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.68 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.69 Memory Lost - Chapter 56: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.70 Memory Lost - Chapter 57: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.71 Memory Lost - Chapter 58: My Heart’s Addiction Jun 11 Ch.72 Memory Lost - Chapter 59: His True Face Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.73 Memory Lost - Chapter 60: His True Face Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.74 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.75 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.76 Memory Lost - Chapter 63: As a Monster Jun 11 Ch.77 Memory Lost - Chapter 64: A Gentleman’s Etiquette Jun 11 Ch.78 Memory Lost - Chapter 65: True Lies Jun 11 Ch.79 Memory Lost - Chapter 66: Typical Case Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.80 Memory Lost - Chapter 67: Typical Case Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.81 Memory Lost - Chapter 68: A Profile within the Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.82 Memory Lost - Chapter 69: A Profile within the Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.83 Memory Lost - Chapter 70: Killing by Imitation Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.84 Memory Lost - Chapter 71: Killing by Imitation Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.85 Memory Lost - Chapter 72: Killing by Imitation Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.86 Memory Lost - Chapter 73: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.87 Memory Lost - Chapter 74: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.88 Memory Lost - Chapter 75: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.89 Memory Lost - Chapter 76: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.90 Memory Lost - Chapter 77: The Second Person Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.91 Memory Lost - Chapter 78: The Second Person Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.92 Memory Lost - Chapter 79: Poisonous Beauty Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.93 Memory Lost - Chapter 80: Poisonous Beauty Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.94 Memory Lost - Chapter 81: A Seven Member Organization Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.95 Memory Lost - Chapter 82: A Seven Member Organization Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.96 Memory Lost - Chapter 83: My Beloved Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.97 Memory Lost - Chapter 84: My Beloved Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.98 Memory Lost - Chapter 85: Unmovable Boulder Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.99 Memory Lost - Chapter 86: Unmovable Boulder Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.100 Memory Lost - Chapter 87: My Sorrow Part 1 ← Current Jun 11 Ch.101 Memory Lost - Chapter 88: My Sorrow Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.102 Memory Lost - Chapter 89: My Sorrow Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.103 Memory Lost - Chapter 90: Let’s Wait and See Jun 11 Ch.104 Memory Lost - Chapter 91: Don’t Let Go Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.105 Memory Lost - Chapter 92: Don’t Let Go Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.106 Memory Lost - Chapter 93: She Will Not Change Jun 11 Ch.107 Memory Lost - Chapter 94: Imperial Sword Jun 11 Ch.108 Memory Lost - Chapter 95: After a bloody Battle Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.109 Memory Lost - Chapter 96: After a bloody Battle Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.110 Memory Lost - Chapter 97: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.111 Memory Lost - Chapter 98: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.112 Memory Lost - Chapter 99: Fall Into My Trap Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.113 Memory Lost - Chapter 100: Fall Into My Trap Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.114 Memory Lost - Chapter 101: Fall Into My Trap Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.115 Memory Lost - Chapter 102: Fall Into My Trap Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.116 Memory Lost - Chapter 103: The Big Show Begins Jun 11 Ch.117 Memory Lost - Chapter 104: The Third Person Jun 11 Ch.118 Memory Lost - Chapter 105 Jun 11 Ch.119 Memory Lost - Chapter 106: A Jealous Person Jun 11 Ch.120 Memory Lost - Chapter 107: hello, Big Sister Jun 11 Ch.121 Memory Lost - Chapter 108: Life and Death Together Jun 11 Ch.122 Memory Lost - Chapter 109: Here For You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.123 Memory Lost - Chapter 110: Here For You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.124 Memory Lost - Chapter 111: Here For You Part 3 + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.125 Memory Lost - Chapter 112: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.126 Memory Lost - Chapter 113: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.127 Memory Lost - Chapter 114: Like Me This Much Jun 11 Ch.128 Memory Lost - Chapter 115: Until the End of Time Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.129 Memory Lost - Chapter 116: Until the End of Time Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.130 Memory Lost - Chapter 117: Until the End of Time Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.131 Memory Lost - Chapter 118: A’s Song of Sadness Jun 11 Ch.132 Memory Lost - Chapter 119: Milliseconds Apart Jun 11 Ch.133 Memory Lost - Chapter 120: L’s Invitation Dance Jun 11 Ch.134 Memory Lost - Chapter 121: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.135 Memory Lost - Chapter 122: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.136 Memory Lost - Chapter 123: Beloved Comrades Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.137 Memory Lost - Chapter 124: Beloved Comrades Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.138 Memory Lost - Chapter 125: R’s World Jun 11 Ch.139 Memory Lost - Chapter 126: Born to Die Jun 11 Ch.140 Memory Lost - Chapter 127: Mini Side Stories Jun 11 Ch.141 Memory Lost - Chapter 128: Her Decision Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.142 Memory Lost - Chapter 129: Her Decision Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.143 Memory Lost - Chapter 130: If He Were To Die Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.144 Memory Lost - Chapter 131: If He Were To Die Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.145 Memory Lost - Chapter 132: I Want to Kill Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.146 Memory Lost - Chapter 133: I Want to Kill Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.147 Memory Lost - Chapter 134: A New Sign Jun 11 Ch.148 Memory Lost - Chapter 135: S’s Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.149 Memory Lost - Chapter 136: S’s Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.150 Memory Lost - Chapter 137: My Fear Jun 11 Ch.151 Memory Lost - Chapter 138: The Hazy Morning Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.152 Memory Lost - Chapter 139: The Hazy Morning Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.153 Memory Lost - Chapter 140: The Hazy Morning Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.154 Memory Lost - Chapter 141: The Hazy Morning Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.155 Memory Lost - Chapter 142: Two Worlds Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.156 Memory Lost - Chapter 143: Two Worlds Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.157 Memory Lost - Chapter 144: Two Worlds Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.158 Memory Lost - Chapter 145: Walking in the Dark + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.159 Memory Lost - Chapter 146: Su Mian, My Love Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.160 Memory Lost - Chapter 147: Su Mian My Love Part 2 + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.161 Memory Lost - Chapter 148: For The Sake of You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.162 Memory Lost - Chapter 149: For The Sake of You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.163 Memory Lost - Chapter 150: The Subway of hell Jun 11 Ch.164 Memory Lost - Chapter 151: S’s Spirit + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.165 Memory Lost - Chapter 152: He’s Waiting For You Jun 11 Ch.166 Memory Lost - Chapter 153: Long Time No See Jun 11 Ch.167 Memory Lost - Chapter 154: Never Grief Jun 11 Ch.168 Memory Lost - Chapter 155: King of Guilt Jun 11 Ch.169 Memory Lost - Chapter 156: Cold Like Snow Jun 11 Ch.170 Memory Lost - Chapter 157: What She Wants Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.171 Memory Lost - Chapter 158: What She Wants Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.172 Memory Lost - Chapter 159: Meeting Death Today Jun 11 Ch.173 Memory Lost - Chapter 160: The Spirit of the Police Shield Jun 11 Ch.174 Memory Lost - Chapter 161: After Love Jun 11 Ch.175 Memory Lost - Chapter 162: Same Day Last Year Jun 11