Back Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (2 of 2)

Chapter 42: Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (2 of 2)

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Chapter 38: My Gentleness (2 of 2)

Jin Xi has taken off his shoes and is wiping the bottom of his feet to help him cool down when she suddenly hears him murmurs, “Bai Jin Xi.”

“Hm?” she raises her head.

But his eyes are closed, and there are no further movements.

Jin Xi ignores him and continues to wipe his arms. But she hears him call out again, “Bai Jin Xi.”

She tosses away the wet towel, squats and looks down at his face.

He’s usually cold and unruly, but his cheeks are currently red from the fever. He looks calm while sleeping, but he’s murmuring her name.

She can’t believe that a manly man like him could be like a child at times.

Jin Xi says in a very soft voice that only she could hear, “What are you calling me for? Since you don’t care about me anyway.”

Li Ming Yue, who’s sleeping beside them, laughs, “I didn’t know your boyfriend likes you so much. He’s even calling your name in his sleep. Yet you guys didn’t even seem like you were dating before.”

Jin Xi smiles and picks up the towel again. Feeling a bit annoyed, she slaps the towel on his face, covering his handsome eyes and tall nose.

She sits down beside him and after a moment of silence, she carefully lifts up a corner of the blanket and slips herself inside.

It’s already past 1 am. Probably because they’ve been through a frightful day, some are asleep while others’ eyes are still wide open, just like Jin Xi.

You Chuan and Professor Sun are lying down facing the wall. They seem to be sleeping as they haven’t budged. Li Ming Yue is lying down not far away. Her face is red most likely due to the cold, but she is breathing in and out evenly. The Zhang Mu Han couple is hugging each other inside the blanket and is chitchatting quietly. Ke Fan is lying beside You Chuan, staring at the ceiling.

And Fang Xu also has the same expression with his eyes opened, thinking about something.

Outside of the house, the old man is sending his sons back. They’re still chatting quietly.

“Go into the forest tomorrow morning and collect more mushrooms.”

“Okay.”

“Your youngest brother hasn’t come back from fishing yet?”

“No. He has most likely gone to have fun in the city.”

“Have you collected the corn cobs from yesterday?”

“Yes, I collected them before the rain.”

……

Everything is calm and quiet. The smell of soil mixed with rain and corn permeates the air as if it’s the most ordinary night at the farm.

Jin Xi continues sitting quietly for a while. She takes a sniff and realizes that her nose is stuffed. She feels her forehead, and she’s actually having a bit of a fever.

It must be because she was wearing her damped clothes for too long.

She refocuses her mind, and just as she’s lying down, she hears a noise coming from behind.

Ke Fan rips his blanket open and stands up. Everyone also wakes up at the same time and looks towards him.

“I’m going to the washroom,” he explains.

Fang Xu gets up suddenly and looks at Ke Fan, “I’m going too.”

Jin Xi’s heart pounds as she sits back up. She looks up and sees that the old man has already gone to the backyard. He’s probably sleeping in the small house there. She can see the washroom at the corner of the yard. But the big mountain behind it is casting a large shadow over it.

“It’s not safe to go with just two people,” she says.

Ke Fan and Fang Xu both laugh. Ke Fan says, “The washroom is just in the backyard. What’s not safe about it?”

“Wait——” Zhang Mu Han stands up, “What a relief! I can’t hold it any longer. Let’s all go together.”

Jin Xi feels her head getting heavier; her cold is getting stronger. She glances at the washroom that’s only about ten meters away and nods, “Go and come back quickly.”

As the three of them leave the room, Zhang Mu Han reaches out his hand and touches the light switch, “Should I close the lights?”

Jin Xi is losing her patience towards such a dumb teammate as she says, “We must not turn off the lights throughout the night!” Zhang Mu Han looks at her and then retrieves his hand.

But they never come back after a long period of time. Jin Xi sleeps for a short while before she wakes up in fright. She looks at her watch; it has already been past twenty minutes. She raises her head and looks around. Their three beds are still empty. She’s now fully awake panicking. She picks up the flashlight and just when she’s about to get up to look for them in the backyard, she hears the door squeak. The three of them walk in.

Jin Xi lets out a breath of relief. They’re a bit surprised to see that she still hasn’t gone to sleep yet; they exchange a few glances at each other.

“Go to sleep,” Ke Fan says in a low voice. Fang Xu doesn’t say anything as he returns to his own bedding. Zhang Mu Han glances at Jin Xi. He stuffs his hands into his pockets, takes them out again, and then goes back to lie down.

Jin Xi watches their expressions and movements. She can’t help but feel that something is strange. She looks over to You Chuan in the corner. He still hasn’t budged, as if he’s deeply asleep.

Jin Xi stays still for a while before slowly lying back down again. She hides both the flashlight and knife inside the blanket beside her hand.

Han Chen is still sleeping. The redness on his cheeks seems to have faded a little. Jin Xi touches his hands and discovers that they are very cold. She touches his neck, and it’s also very cold.

Is it because the blanket is too thin?

Jin Xi stares at his face that is only a few centimeters away. Their bodies are against each other with not much free room to move. The light distinctive smell that belongs to him has been hovering over her all this time.

Jin Xi reaches out with both arms and embraces him. She leans against him with her warm body, resting her head on his shoulder.

She’s using her body to warm him up.

He moves slightly, suddenly turning his body slowly and hugging her. His eyes are still closed, but he buries his head into her subconsciously. His face is against hers and his nose is in her hair. He then stops moving.

Jin Xi’s heart beats quickly.

She feels as if her face and body is no longer hers. The man’s cheeks are a bit cold, and his head is bit heavy. There’s also the light scent of cigarette, and his overbearing embrace. There isn’t a gap between the two of them.

After a while, her heartbeat gradually returns to normal, and now she feels that this is quite funny.

This Han Chen…he sure has bad sleeping habits. During the day, he likes to remain chaste and have no body contact, but once he’s asleep, he takes advantage of women.

From now on, she must remember to stay away from him.

But for tonight, she’ll just have to cope with this……

Jin Xi doesn’t know how long she has been sleeping for. Maybe it’s been ten minutes or half an hour, or perhaps, it has only been a few minutes?

Even though her cold has started to worsen and her head is dizzy, Jin Xi knows very well that Han Chen’s wound isn’t light. She must let him rest for at least a good period of time in order for him to recover his strength.

And since she is a criminal investigator, she has the ability to do so. While she’s half asleep and everywhere is quiet without a sound, she wakes up suddenly from fright.

She opens her eyes and everywhere is pitch black. Han Chen is still breathing calmly beside her.

It’s pitch black.

The lights were still on before she fell asleep, and she had warned Zhang Mu Han before not to shut them off. After all that had happened today, she trusted that no one would turn them off.

But right now, the lights have been turned off at some point.

Cold sweat begins to run down her back. She holds her breath, reaches into the corner of her blanket and pulls out the knife.

There are no stars or moon. There isn’t a single source of light in the deep part of the mountain. This house is completely dark like it’s painted with thick black ink.

And right at this moment, she seems to hear some footsteps. They’re from inside this room.

And then, she suddenly hears a very low whimpering sound coming from a woman.

It sounds as if her mouth has been covered by someone, and her neck is being strangled, so she can only make the most desperate cry for help from the deepest part of her throat.

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Ch.1 Memory Lost - Chapter 1: A Beauty as Always Jun 9 Ch.2 Memory Lost - Chapter 2: Underhanded Tricks Jun 11 Ch.3 Memory Lost - Chapter 3: Forensic Investigator Si Bai Jun 11 Ch.4 Memory Lost - Chapter 4: First Dream Jun 11 Ch.5 Memory Lost - Chapter 5: Criminal Investigator Han Chen Jun 11 Ch.6 Memory Lost - Chapter 6: Beginning of the Battle Jun 11 Ch.7 Memory Lost - Chapter 7: Your Brokenness Jun 11 Ch.8 Memory Lost - Chapter 8: Handsome bastard Jun 11 Ch.9 Memory Lost - Chapter 9: My Capability Jun 11 Ch.10 Memory Lost - Chapter 10: The Suspects Jun 11 Ch.11 Memory Lost - Chapter 11: Between Time and space Jun 11 Ch.12 Memory Lost - Chapter 12: My True Love Jun 11 Ch.13 Memory Lost - Chapter 13: Brother Han the thirteen Jun 11 Ch.14 Memory Lost - Chapter 14: Black Gloves Jun 11 Ch.15 Memory Lost - Chapter 15: His Tenacity Jun 11 Ch.16 Memory Lost - Chapter 16: Obsession + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.17 Memory Lost - Chapter 17: Reflection of Beauty Jun 11 Ch.18 Memory Lost - Chapter 18: Prologue to T Jun 11 Ch.19 Memory Lost - Chapter 19: You Step Forward I Step Back Jun 11 Ch.20 Memory Lost - Chapter 20: So Gentle Jun 11 Ch.21 Memory Lost - Chapter 21: As Cute as Her Jun 11 Ch.22 Memory Lost - Chapter 22: The Sophisticated Me Jun 11 Ch.23 Memory Lost - Chapter 23: Working Together Long Term Jun 11 Ch.24 Memory Lost - Chapter 24: Sniping Heaven Jun 11 Ch.25 Memory Lost - Chapter 25: Jin Xi’s Grief Jun 11 Ch.26 Memory Lost - Chapter 26: A Series of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.27 Memory Lost - Chapter 27: Turbulences in the Background Jun 11 Ch.28 Memory Lost - Chapter 28: Soaring Little Bird Jun 11 Ch.29 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.30 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.31 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.32 Memory Lost - Chapter 30: Drinks for Today + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.33 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.34 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.35 Memory Lost - Chapter 32: My Hero Jun 11 Ch.36 Memory Lost - Chapter 33: Falling into Deep Sleep Together Jun 11 Ch.37 Memory Lost - Chapter 34: Praying Mantis Preying on Cicada Jun 11 Ch.38 Memory Lost - Chapter 35: The Beginning of Death Jun 11 Ch.39 Memory Lost - Chapter 36: Possible Light Jun 11 Ch.40 Memory Lost - Chapter 37: Admiring Heart + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.41 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.42 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (2 of 2) ← Current Jun 11 Ch.43 Memory Lost - Chapter 39: A Bunch of Idiots Jun 11 Ch.44 Memory Lost - Chapter 40: Him Alone Jun 11 Ch.45 Memory Lost - Chapter 41: T’s Torture Chamber Jun 11 Ch.46 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.47 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.48 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.49 Memory Lost - Chapter 43: Perhaps It’s You Jun 11 Ch.50 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.51 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.52 Memory Lost - Chapter 45: Feelings for Each Other Jun 11 Ch.53 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.54 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.55 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (1 or 2) Jun 11 Ch.56 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (2 of 2) + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.57 Memory Lost - Chapter 48: Come Home with Me Jun 11 Ch.58 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.59 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.60 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.61 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.62 Memory Lost - Chapter 51: Mentally Ill Jun 11 Ch.63 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.64 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.65 Memory Lost - Chapter 53: The Spirit of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.66 Memory Lost - Chapter 54: Painstaking Investigation Jun 11 Ch.67 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.68 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.69 Memory Lost - Chapter 56: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.70 Memory Lost - Chapter 57: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.71 Memory Lost - Chapter 58: My Heart’s Addiction Jun 11 Ch.72 Memory Lost - Chapter 59: His True Face Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.73 Memory Lost - Chapter 60: His True Face Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.74 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.75 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.76 Memory Lost - Chapter 63: As a Monster Jun 11 Ch.77 Memory Lost - Chapter 64: A Gentleman’s Etiquette Jun 11 Ch.78 Memory Lost - Chapter 65: True Lies Jun 11 Ch.79 Memory Lost - Chapter 66: Typical Case Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.80 Memory Lost - Chapter 67: Typical Case Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.81 Memory Lost - Chapter 68: A Profile within the Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.82 Memory Lost - Chapter 69: A Profile within the Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.83 Memory Lost - Chapter 70: Killing by Imitation Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.84 Memory Lost - Chapter 71: Killing by Imitation Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.85 Memory Lost - Chapter 72: Killing by Imitation Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.86 Memory Lost - Chapter 73: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.87 Memory Lost - Chapter 74: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.88 Memory Lost - Chapter 75: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.89 Memory Lost - Chapter 76: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.90 Memory Lost - Chapter 77: The Second Person Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.91 Memory Lost - Chapter 78: The Second Person Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.92 Memory Lost - Chapter 79: Poisonous Beauty Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.93 Memory Lost - Chapter 80: Poisonous Beauty Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.94 Memory Lost - Chapter 81: A Seven Member Organization Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.95 Memory Lost - Chapter 82: A Seven Member Organization Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.96 Memory Lost - Chapter 83: My Beloved Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.97 Memory Lost - Chapter 84: My Beloved Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.98 Memory Lost - Chapter 85: Unmovable Boulder Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.99 Memory Lost - Chapter 86: Unmovable Boulder Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.100 Memory Lost - Chapter 87: My Sorrow Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.101 Memory Lost - Chapter 88: My Sorrow Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.102 Memory Lost - Chapter 89: My Sorrow Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.103 Memory Lost - Chapter 90: Let’s Wait and See Jun 11 Ch.104 Memory Lost - Chapter 91: Don’t Let Go Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.105 Memory Lost - Chapter 92: Don’t Let Go Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.106 Memory Lost - Chapter 93: She Will Not Change Jun 11 Ch.107 Memory Lost - Chapter 94: Imperial Sword Jun 11 Ch.108 Memory Lost - Chapter 95: After a bloody Battle Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.109 Memory Lost - Chapter 96: After a bloody Battle Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.110 Memory Lost - Chapter 97: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.111 Memory Lost - Chapter 98: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.112 Memory Lost - Chapter 99: Fall Into My Trap Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.113 Memory Lost - Chapter 100: Fall Into My Trap Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.114 Memory Lost - Chapter 101: Fall Into My Trap Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.115 Memory Lost - Chapter 102: Fall Into My Trap Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.116 Memory Lost - Chapter 103: The Big Show Begins Jun 11 Ch.117 Memory Lost - Chapter 104: The Third Person Jun 11 Ch.118 Memory Lost - Chapter 105 Jun 11 Ch.119 Memory Lost - Chapter 106: A Jealous Person Jun 11 Ch.120 Memory Lost - Chapter 107: hello, Big Sister Jun 11 Ch.121 Memory Lost - Chapter 108: Life and Death Together Jun 11 Ch.122 Memory Lost - Chapter 109: Here For You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.123 Memory Lost - Chapter 110: Here For You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.124 Memory Lost - Chapter 111: Here For You Part 3 + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.125 Memory Lost - Chapter 112: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.126 Memory Lost - Chapter 113: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.127 Memory Lost - Chapter 114: Like Me This Much Jun 11 Ch.128 Memory Lost - Chapter 115: Until the End of Time Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.129 Memory Lost - Chapter 116: Until the End of Time Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.130 Memory Lost - Chapter 117: Until the End of Time Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.131 Memory Lost - Chapter 118: A’s Song of Sadness Jun 11 Ch.132 Memory Lost - Chapter 119: Milliseconds Apart Jun 11 Ch.133 Memory Lost - Chapter 120: L’s Invitation Dance Jun 11 Ch.134 Memory Lost - Chapter 121: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.135 Memory Lost - Chapter 122: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.136 Memory Lost - Chapter 123: Beloved Comrades Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.137 Memory Lost - Chapter 124: Beloved Comrades Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.138 Memory Lost - Chapter 125: R’s World Jun 11 Ch.139 Memory Lost - Chapter 126: Born to Die Jun 11 Ch.140 Memory Lost - Chapter 127: Mini Side Stories Jun 11 Ch.141 Memory Lost - Chapter 128: Her Decision Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.142 Memory Lost - Chapter 129: Her Decision Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.143 Memory Lost - Chapter 130: If He Were To Die Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.144 Memory Lost - Chapter 131: If He Were To Die Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.145 Memory Lost - Chapter 132: I Want to Kill Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.146 Memory Lost - Chapter 133: I Want to Kill Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.147 Memory Lost - Chapter 134: A New Sign Jun 11 Ch.148 Memory Lost - Chapter 135: S’s Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.149 Memory Lost - Chapter 136: S’s Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.150 Memory Lost - Chapter 137: My Fear Jun 11 Ch.151 Memory Lost - Chapter 138: The Hazy Morning Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.152 Memory Lost - Chapter 139: The Hazy Morning Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.153 Memory Lost - Chapter 140: The Hazy Morning Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.154 Memory Lost - Chapter 141: The Hazy Morning Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.155 Memory Lost - Chapter 142: Two Worlds Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.156 Memory Lost - Chapter 143: Two Worlds Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.157 Memory Lost - Chapter 144: Two Worlds Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.158 Memory Lost - Chapter 145: Walking in the Dark + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.159 Memory Lost - Chapter 146: Su Mian, My Love Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.160 Memory Lost - Chapter 147: Su Mian My Love Part 2 + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.161 Memory Lost - Chapter 148: For The Sake of You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.162 Memory Lost - Chapter 149: For The Sake of You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.163 Memory Lost - Chapter 150: The Subway of hell Jun 11 Ch.164 Memory Lost - Chapter 151: S’s Spirit + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.165 Memory Lost - Chapter 152: He’s Waiting For You Jun 11 Ch.166 Memory Lost - Chapter 153: Long Time No See Jun 11 Ch.167 Memory Lost - Chapter 154: Never Grief Jun 11 Ch.168 Memory Lost - Chapter 155: King of Guilt Jun 11 Ch.169 Memory Lost - Chapter 156: Cold Like Snow Jun 11 Ch.170 Memory Lost - Chapter 157: What She Wants Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.171 Memory Lost - Chapter 158: What She Wants Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.172 Memory Lost - Chapter 159: Meeting Death Today Jun 11 Ch.173 Memory Lost - Chapter 160: The Spirit of the Police Shield Jun 11 Ch.174 Memory Lost - Chapter 161: After Love Jun 11 Ch.175 Memory Lost - Chapter 162: Same Day Last Year Jun 11