Back Memory Lost - Chapter 106: Memory Lost - Chapter 93: She Will Not Change

Chapter 106: Memory Lost - Chapter 93: She Will Not Change

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Chapter 93: She Will Not Change

The night is hazy and the lamps by the lakeside are like bright shining pearls.

The three men stare at each other quietly. Da Wei finally speaks incompetently, "Chen Er, if the woman we saw today is Su Mian……either you let her be punished by the law! Or……take her away and disappear forever! We'll pretend that we never met her today and we won't tell anyone!"

Monkey nods furiously. Their eyes are red as they stare at Han Chen.

But Han Chen lowers his head slightly. The subtle light from the lake surface reflects on his face. His voice is full of determination, "There's no need. She's not a serial killer. We'll unveil the truth about the incident back then."

Da Wei doesn't know what to say. Monkey blurts out, "What if she is one?"

"There's no if!" Han Chen jerks his head up. His eyes are dark like the pitch black sky behind him.

"If……a very minuscule possibility really exists?" Da Wei speaks again while staring directly at Han Chen, "You haven't recovered your memory fully, right? You can't remember what happened back then. If she really did make the wrong step, Han Chen, what should you do then?!"

He questions intensely making Han Chen quiet down.

The three of them are in awkward silence again.

"She will admit her wrongdoing then. I will wait for her," he says, turns around and leaves.

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Su Mian waits for another while before seeing Han Chen walking toward her in the shadows from the trees accompanied by sparse lighting from the streetlamps. And behind him, Monkey and Da Wei pause their footsteps, turn around and leave. The other unfamiliar people leave with them.

Only she and he are left by themselves again.

Su Mian watches him come near.

He seems calm and his eyes are dark. If it isn't for his slightly ruffled hair, she wouldn't be able to tell that he and his buddies just had a fierce argument. He stands beside her with one hand on the white railing and the other on her shoulder, "Cold?"

Su Mian shakes her head. She tugs on his arm and looks up at him, "Tell me. It looks like you got a very big problem."

Han Chen stares at her quietly for a moment.

"You've got sharp eyes. There is indeed a big problem."

He tells her about Su Mian's and Bai Jin Xi's identities being switched in simple words. But it's the only thing that he tells her.

Su Mian remains quiet. This doesn't come as a surprise to her. It's just that when she thinks about the real Bai Jin Xi, she has mixed feelings in her heart. A girl who has undergone plastic surgery to look like her; a girl who she has taken the identity of; a girl who might have been controlled by the seven-member organization. Did Bai Jin Xi sacrifice herself because she did not have a choice? Or did she willingly allow the seven-member organization dictate her? There's no way to find out.

"But……" her eyebrows furrow, "if this was all arranged by the seven-member organization, why didn't they kill me? Instead, why did they let me live, leaving behind danger? Furthermore, Da Wei and Monkey lied to you for this many years because they thought I died? Is there no other reason?"

She catches two key questionable points with her sensitivity, startling Han Chen a bit.

Out of an investigator's instinct, that possibility flashes across his mind——

If she had really let herself go and fell to the pits, the first question can be explained then——It's because the seven-member organization considered her as part of them, therefore, they didn't kill her. They even "hid" her away safely, giving her a new identity and life.

……

When you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth (Sherlock Holmes).

This is what she and he have always believed in.

……

But this time, he doesn't believe it.

He hugs her, lowers his head and kisses her hair, "Did you forget that you were an undercover policeman? Da Wei and Monkey refusing to tell me about you is a misunderstanding. They thought that you had already let yourself go and fall into the pits."

Su Mian feels relief and glances at him, "You shouldn't blame them then."

"Mm, I won't blame them."

They lift their heads and admire the lake surface together.

"There are still a lot of details that we don't know," he says slowly, "How did you become an undercover cop? How did we end up in the explosion accident? Why didn't they kill you? Did they have another motive? We can't find the answers to all these things at once. So we shouldn't rush to find the answer to a certain question. We should chase after the root of everything to find out the truth of the entire case. And then all these questions will be answered."

Su Mian sighs softly.

"Okay!" her voice is crisp and firm, "No matter what their motive may be, we must defeat them!"

The night is quiet. Her hands are on the railing while she looks up at the sky. The side profile of her face is fair white and soft; captivating and smooth like jade. And those eyes are bright and clear, reflecting the water from the lake.

She then turns her head to look at him and smiles.

Han Chen stares at her quietly. He lets go of the railing suddenly and holds her face. He lowers his head and kisses her.

His kiss comes so suddenly and fiercely. He presses her against a big tree before she is quick enough to react. His one hand is on the tree trunk while his other is holding her chin; his lips and tongue move aggressively with hers.

Su Mian moans as she struggles to break free, "Han Chen……there are people everywhere……"

"Don't care."

She can even hear him gasping for air while kissing. His burning tongue sweeps inside her mouth causing her mind to go blank.

"What's up with you……" she persists in trying to stop him.

But he ignores her completely. He moves his lips away slowly and stares at her at a close distance, "Su Mian, kiss me."

Su Mian, "Ah?"

Right after he makes his request, he doesn't wait for her to come out of her daze. He lowers his head and rubs his ear and the side of his face against her lips lightly, gesturing for her to kiss him. He, on the other hand, starts kissing her around the neck.

……

It's not until they get back to the hotel that his enthusiasm is fully released. The moment they close the door, he lifts her up and puts her against the wall. Their bodies begin to twist with each other. It's the wildest position that they've ever been in. He enters her too quickly; Su Mian gasps and shouts, "Ow!" His eyes are dark like there are tidal waves rippling in them. Yet he slows down his rhythm and kisses her gently while thrusting slowly.

……

The night is still very, very dark. The moon can be seen outside of the window, hanging on top of the skyscrapers.

Su Mian is lying on the bed on her stomach softly. Han Chen has his arms wrapped around her from behind. He continues kissing her back; it's as if he possesses her entirely.

They continue for another while like this. Su Mian, who is completely out of energy from being "bullied," speaks slowly, "Why are you behaving like this today?"

Han Chen is always laid back and gentle at moments like these; his temperament as a young master is also at its height. He grabs her hand and rubs it in his palm and says nonchalantly, "Just wanted a change in flavor."

Su Mian, "……F–k you!"

She turns her body to face him. He pulls over the blanket to cover them both and lowers his head to look into her eyes.

"I know you weren't happy after seeing your buddies today," she says softly, "so that's why you're like this, right?"

Her voice with the utmost gentleness makes Han Chen falls into silence immediately. He stares at her with his heart feeling even more tender.

But she changes the subject with her face revealing a mischievous smile, "I knew it! All men are animals who use their lower bodies to think." She then picks up his hand and puts it on her chest, "Come! However depressed you feel in your heart, just take it out on me! I can handle it! In a key moment like this, how can I not show my support!"

After her superb speech, her face is blushing and charming, but her eyes carry a hint of a playful smile. Han Chen's mind goes blank from watching her.

A moment later, he lowers his head and laughs. His fair white face is so handsome like he's a painting.

Su Mian giggles, "Hehheh."

After a while, he reaches out his arms and wraps them around her waist. Her body curves up slightly, leaning against his.

He looks at her with his deep eyes.

Many imagery flashes across his mind——

Behind the screen at the nightclub in Jiangcheng, she said to him arrogantly and calmly, "You come with us back to the station. If you haven't done anything to break the law, we won't do any injustice to you."

In T's case, T sent his invitation to the Black Shield Team officially, requesting that he and she to participate without any weapons. Death may have been waiting for them, but she stood up swiftly and said, "I'm willing to go."

And on that night. She sat inside his car and said to him with the same tone of voice, "He would marry me after I graduate. He won't marry anyone else but me in his life."

……

There are a thousand reasons to not believe in her, but it only takes one reason to believe her. It's enough to make all "evidence" and so-called logic to become useless——

Losing her memory, being muddled, lonely, and becoming an unknown bumpkin……she has lost everything and forgotten about everything, but she has not stopped loving him or given up on her beliefs and desires.

How could a person like her possibly change?

……

He lowers his head and kisses her deeply.

"Promise me one thing."

"Hm?" she opens her eyes.

"Didn't you say that you only have me now?" he asks unconcernedly.

Su Mian doesn't know what he's trying to get at, so she responds carefully, "Yes……what's the matter?"

"If that's the case, listen to me," he says crisply, "No matter what happens in the future, just trust me and trust yourself. Got it?"

Su Mian blinks her eyes. She wants to say something but instead, nods while looking into his eyes, "Okay. I promise you."

Han Chen smiles slightly. He hugs her, lies down and says, "And one more thing, your undercover identity has not been verified, so there's still danger to that. Therefore, continue to be Bai Jin Xi and don't tell anyone about your real identity."

Su Mian understands this very well. She thinks for a second and asks, "I can't even tell Xiao Zhuan?"

Han Chen glances at her, "No."

"Sigh, okay."

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Memory Lost — Chapters

Ch.1 Memory Lost - Chapter 1: A Beauty as Always Jun 9 Ch.2 Memory Lost - Chapter 2: Underhanded Tricks Jun 11 Ch.3 Memory Lost - Chapter 3: Forensic Investigator Si Bai Jun 11 Ch.4 Memory Lost - Chapter 4: First Dream Jun 11 Ch.5 Memory Lost - Chapter 5: Criminal Investigator Han Chen Jun 11 Ch.6 Memory Lost - Chapter 6: Beginning of the Battle Jun 11 Ch.7 Memory Lost - Chapter 7: Your Brokenness Jun 11 Ch.8 Memory Lost - Chapter 8: Handsome bastard Jun 11 Ch.9 Memory Lost - Chapter 9: My Capability Jun 11 Ch.10 Memory Lost - Chapter 10: The Suspects Jun 11 Ch.11 Memory Lost - Chapter 11: Between Time and space Jun 11 Ch.12 Memory Lost - Chapter 12: My True Love Jun 11 Ch.13 Memory Lost - Chapter 13: Brother Han the thirteen Jun 11 Ch.14 Memory Lost - Chapter 14: Black Gloves Jun 11 Ch.15 Memory Lost - Chapter 15: His Tenacity Jun 11 Ch.16 Memory Lost - Chapter 16: Obsession + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.17 Memory Lost - Chapter 17: Reflection of Beauty Jun 11 Ch.18 Memory Lost - Chapter 18: Prologue to T Jun 11 Ch.19 Memory Lost - Chapter 19: You Step Forward I Step Back Jun 11 Ch.20 Memory Lost - Chapter 20: So Gentle Jun 11 Ch.21 Memory Lost - Chapter 21: As Cute as Her Jun 11 Ch.22 Memory Lost - Chapter 22: The Sophisticated Me Jun 11 Ch.23 Memory Lost - Chapter 23: Working Together Long Term Jun 11 Ch.24 Memory Lost - Chapter 24: Sniping Heaven Jun 11 Ch.25 Memory Lost - Chapter 25: Jin Xi’s Grief Jun 11 Ch.26 Memory Lost - Chapter 26: A Series of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.27 Memory Lost - Chapter 27: Turbulences in the Background Jun 11 Ch.28 Memory Lost - Chapter 28: Soaring Little Bird Jun 11 Ch.29 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.30 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.31 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.32 Memory Lost - Chapter 30: Drinks for Today + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.33 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.34 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.35 Memory Lost - Chapter 32: My Hero Jun 11 Ch.36 Memory Lost - Chapter 33: Falling into Deep Sleep Together Jun 11 Ch.37 Memory Lost - Chapter 34: Praying Mantis Preying on Cicada Jun 11 Ch.38 Memory Lost - Chapter 35: The Beginning of Death Jun 11 Ch.39 Memory Lost - Chapter 36: Possible Light Jun 11 Ch.40 Memory Lost - Chapter 37: Admiring Heart + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.41 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.42 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.43 Memory Lost - Chapter 39: A Bunch of Idiots Jun 11 Ch.44 Memory Lost - Chapter 40: Him Alone Jun 11 Ch.45 Memory Lost - Chapter 41: T’s Torture Chamber Jun 11 Ch.46 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.47 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.48 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.49 Memory Lost - Chapter 43: Perhaps It’s You Jun 11 Ch.50 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.51 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.52 Memory Lost - Chapter 45: Feelings for Each Other Jun 11 Ch.53 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.54 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.55 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (1 or 2) Jun 11 Ch.56 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (2 of 2) + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.57 Memory Lost - Chapter 48: Come Home with Me Jun 11 Ch.58 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.59 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.60 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.61 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.62 Memory Lost - Chapter 51: Mentally Ill Jun 11 Ch.63 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.64 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.65 Memory Lost - Chapter 53: The Spirit of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.66 Memory Lost - Chapter 54: Painstaking Investigation Jun 11 Ch.67 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.68 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.69 Memory Lost - Chapter 56: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.70 Memory Lost - Chapter 57: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.71 Memory Lost - Chapter 58: My Heart’s Addiction Jun 11 Ch.72 Memory Lost - Chapter 59: His True Face Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.73 Memory Lost - Chapter 60: His True Face Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.74 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.75 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.76 Memory Lost - Chapter 63: As a Monster Jun 11 Ch.77 Memory Lost - Chapter 64: A Gentleman’s Etiquette Jun 11 Ch.78 Memory Lost - Chapter 65: True Lies Jun 11 Ch.79 Memory Lost - Chapter 66: Typical Case Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.80 Memory Lost - Chapter 67: Typical Case Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.81 Memory Lost - Chapter 68: A Profile within the Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.82 Memory Lost - Chapter 69: A Profile within the Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.83 Memory Lost - Chapter 70: Killing by Imitation Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.84 Memory Lost - Chapter 71: Killing by Imitation Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.85 Memory Lost - Chapter 72: Killing by Imitation Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.86 Memory Lost - Chapter 73: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.87 Memory Lost - Chapter 74: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.88 Memory Lost - Chapter 75: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.89 Memory Lost - Chapter 76: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.90 Memory Lost - Chapter 77: The Second Person Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.91 Memory Lost - Chapter 78: The Second Person Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.92 Memory Lost - Chapter 79: Poisonous Beauty Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.93 Memory Lost - Chapter 80: Poisonous Beauty Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.94 Memory Lost - Chapter 81: A Seven Member Organization Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.95 Memory Lost - Chapter 82: A Seven Member Organization Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.96 Memory Lost - Chapter 83: My Beloved Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.97 Memory Lost - Chapter 84: My Beloved Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.98 Memory Lost - Chapter 85: Unmovable Boulder Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.99 Memory Lost - Chapter 86: Unmovable Boulder Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.100 Memory Lost - Chapter 87: My Sorrow Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.101 Memory Lost - Chapter 88: My Sorrow Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.102 Memory Lost - Chapter 89: My Sorrow Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.103 Memory Lost - Chapter 90: Let’s Wait and See Jun 11 Ch.104 Memory Lost - Chapter 91: Don’t Let Go Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.105 Memory Lost - Chapter 92: Don’t Let Go Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.106 Memory Lost - Chapter 93: She Will Not Change ← Current Jun 11 Ch.107 Memory Lost - Chapter 94: Imperial Sword Jun 11 Ch.108 Memory Lost - Chapter 95: After a bloody Battle Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.109 Memory Lost - Chapter 96: After a bloody Battle Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.110 Memory Lost - Chapter 97: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.111 Memory Lost - Chapter 98: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.112 Memory Lost - Chapter 99: Fall Into My Trap Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.113 Memory Lost - Chapter 100: Fall Into My Trap Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.114 Memory Lost - Chapter 101: Fall Into My Trap Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.115 Memory Lost - Chapter 102: Fall Into My Trap Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.116 Memory Lost - Chapter 103: The Big Show Begins Jun 11 Ch.117 Memory Lost - Chapter 104: The Third Person Jun 11 Ch.118 Memory Lost - Chapter 105 Jun 11 Ch.119 Memory Lost - Chapter 106: A Jealous Person Jun 11 Ch.120 Memory Lost - Chapter 107: hello, Big Sister Jun 11 Ch.121 Memory Lost - Chapter 108: Life and Death Together Jun 11 Ch.122 Memory Lost - Chapter 109: Here For You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.123 Memory Lost - Chapter 110: Here For You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.124 Memory Lost - Chapter 111: Here For You Part 3 + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.125 Memory Lost - Chapter 112: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.126 Memory Lost - Chapter 113: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.127 Memory Lost - Chapter 114: Like Me This Much Jun 11 Ch.128 Memory Lost - Chapter 115: Until the End of Time Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.129 Memory Lost - Chapter 116: Until the End of Time Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.130 Memory Lost - Chapter 117: Until the End of Time Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.131 Memory Lost - Chapter 118: A’s Song of Sadness Jun 11 Ch.132 Memory Lost - Chapter 119: Milliseconds Apart Jun 11 Ch.133 Memory Lost - Chapter 120: L’s Invitation Dance Jun 11 Ch.134 Memory Lost - Chapter 121: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.135 Memory Lost - Chapter 122: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.136 Memory Lost - Chapter 123: Beloved Comrades Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.137 Memory Lost - Chapter 124: Beloved Comrades Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.138 Memory Lost - Chapter 125: R’s World Jun 11 Ch.139 Memory Lost - Chapter 126: Born to Die Jun 11 Ch.140 Memory Lost - Chapter 127: Mini Side Stories Jun 11 Ch.141 Memory Lost - Chapter 128: Her Decision Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.142 Memory Lost - Chapter 129: Her Decision Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.143 Memory Lost - Chapter 130: If He Were To Die Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.144 Memory Lost - Chapter 131: If He Were To Die Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.145 Memory Lost - Chapter 132: I Want to Kill Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.146 Memory Lost - Chapter 133: I Want to Kill Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.147 Memory Lost - Chapter 134: A New Sign Jun 11 Ch.148 Memory Lost - Chapter 135: S’s Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.149 Memory Lost - Chapter 136: S’s Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.150 Memory Lost - Chapter 137: My Fear Jun 11 Ch.151 Memory Lost - Chapter 138: The Hazy Morning Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.152 Memory Lost - Chapter 139: The Hazy Morning Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.153 Memory Lost - Chapter 140: The Hazy Morning Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.154 Memory Lost - Chapter 141: The Hazy Morning Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.155 Memory Lost - Chapter 142: Two Worlds Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.156 Memory Lost - Chapter 143: Two Worlds Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.157 Memory Lost - Chapter 144: Two Worlds Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.158 Memory Lost - Chapter 145: Walking in the Dark + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.159 Memory Lost - Chapter 146: Su Mian, My Love Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.160 Memory Lost - Chapter 147: Su Mian My Love Part 2 + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.161 Memory Lost - Chapter 148: For The Sake of You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.162 Memory Lost - Chapter 149: For The Sake of You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.163 Memory Lost - Chapter 150: The Subway of hell Jun 11 Ch.164 Memory Lost - Chapter 151: S’s Spirit + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.165 Memory Lost - Chapter 152: He’s Waiting For You Jun 11 Ch.166 Memory Lost - Chapter 153: Long Time No See Jun 11 Ch.167 Memory Lost - Chapter 154: Never Grief Jun 11 Ch.168 Memory Lost - Chapter 155: King of Guilt Jun 11 Ch.169 Memory Lost - Chapter 156: Cold Like Snow Jun 11 Ch.170 Memory Lost - Chapter 157: What She Wants Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.171 Memory Lost - Chapter 158: What She Wants Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.172 Memory Lost - Chapter 159: Meeting Death Today Jun 11 Ch.173 Memory Lost - Chapter 160: The Spirit of the Police Shield Jun 11 Ch.174 Memory Lost - Chapter 161: After Love Jun 11 Ch.175 Memory Lost - Chapter 162: Same Day Last Year Jun 11