Back Memory Lost - Chapter 132: Memory Lost - Chapter 119: Milliseconds Apart

Chapter 132: Memory Lost - Chapter 119: Milliseconds Apart

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Chapter 119: Milliseconds Apart

The moment she receives Chatterbox's message outlining the date of the injuring others incident, Su Mian knows that it's not the right one.

Firstly, without a doubt, A didn't write the poem. He doesn't have the literary skills to. It was most likely L who wrote it.

L does not have compassion. He only cares about himself and definitely does not have any concept of punishing the evil. How could he possibly write a poem for an innocent person and write it with so many feelings?

And even if it were A, he only kills others based on his liking; he doesn't seem to show any views of justice.

Therefore, the prediction from Chatterbox and the others cannot be correct.

And thinking more carefully about the poem, "the sky changes colors", "the clouds above his head", they can signify something else——explosion.

In addition, "crawling among the crowd" is such an obvious behavior. They can be sure that this poem is writing about A's process of committing a crime.

As for "the little bird's wings have been clipped" and "using its legs to fly", it clearly signifies a certain downfall and change in life.

"Wings are returned to him": could this be the new life that the mentally ill are chasing for?

And "that day" and "until one day" are concepts of time. Since the password is a string of numbers, Su Mian can predict that the numbers must be from a certain explosion case.

But, which one is it?

There are two dates that match her criteria.

One of them is the date of A's first time committing a crime. Su Mian has flipped through the documents many times, so she remembers the date clearly. It's 20080630. If the metaphors in the poem are writing about A finally carrying out his first crime to search for a new meaning in life, just like how Xu Nan Bai said "his life started to ignite" before the cliff, then this date matches with the criteria.

But there's a second date: 20090420.

Su Mian takes a deep breath thinking about this. It's the time when the seven-member organization fought with the police causing many bloodsheds; it's the date of when she and Han Chen were separated. Using Xin Jia's words, it was also when the seven-member organization started breaking apart.

Therefore, if the metaphors are talking about this incident, it would make sense too.

As for the alphabet letters at the end, Su Mian can't figure it out yet. If they're the letters representing the seven-member organization, there's too many. If they're supposed to be combined, she can't think of any English words or romanization from the letters.

……

She looks up at Han Chen. Just as she wants to grasp the time to talk to him, a terrifying child's scream comes from the crowd behind them, "AHH——It hurts!" And then a woman shrieks, "My child! My child! Don't step on her, don't step on her!"

Su Mian and Han Chen both turn around. They can actually see a seven to eight year-old girl on the ground being stepped on by the crowd blindly. Her mother has been pushed away two to three meters from her; she's pale as she screams and tries to make her way back. And people who see the girl are subconsciously moving away, but due to the massive crowd, people are being shoved around and many end up stepping on the girl's body. The girl's voice suddenly goes silent; as if she's dead.

Han Chen and Su Mian don't hesitate any longer.

"Move aside! The girl's going to die from you stepping on her!" Han Chen's face is as cold as ice. He pushes a big and tall man away in front of him. He releases Su Mian's hand and rushes toward the girl. The big man's face changes due to being pushed, "What's with the pushing?! Who doesn't want to live now?! Move aside!" He reaches out his arm to push Han Chen. But before he touches Han Chen, Han Chen dodges quickly. He tilts his head slightly and his face is stern like a statue. He punches him fiercely in the face!

Su Mian can't help but feel satisfied: great punch!

The big man's face is now bleeding as he falls to the person behind him. The man is completely dumbstruck and others beside him are also shocked as they turn to look at Han Chen. Han Chen and Su Mian use this time to get to the girl. Han Chen carries the fragile girl in his arms and puts her into her mom's embrace.

The crowd is starting to move again. Han Chen embraces Su Mian tightly as he leans against the wall. It's too noisy around them. He pulls out his phone and sends a text message quickly: "200980420".

Su Mian feels as if the waves in her heart has finally settled down, but she feels perplexed at the same time. Once he puts the phone down, she asks immediately, "Why is it this day? Is it not 20080630?"

Han Chen's fair white face is still cold as always. He answers swiftly, "The order of the letters."

They're not in a place for him to explain it to her right now. But he was able to spot the pattern of the letters at first glance.

The first set of letters: a, e, i, m, and q are in order, and between each letter, it skips 3 consecutive letters. Based on this pattern, the next letter would be u after skipping r, s, and t.

The other set of letters are z, x, v, and t. They are in reversed order and between two letters, one letter is skipped. Based on this pattern, the next letter should be r, skipping s.

Although he doesn't know the meaning behind skipping the letters, Su Mian said before that A and L both have a childish side. Therefore, he might as well use the most direct approach to think through this pattern. This allows him to discover that between the two sets of letters, the letter "s" is in the center of it.

And what does s stand for?

A letter representing another killer?

Or is it the beginning letter of the word, "seven"? And the phrase in the poem, "he was only seven that day," is the day after 20090420 where their organization is left with seven people only.

Therefore, Han Chen is certain that this is the date.

And two seconds after sending the text message, his phone rings again.

Han Chen picks up the phone. Su Mian feels her heart in her throat.

Chatterbox's speech is rapid and carries pain, "Leader……it's too late! The situation is out of control!"

Han Chen's eyes darken suddenly.

When Han Chen and Su Mian went to save the child who was being stepped on, they still had 2 minutes before the explosion time of 7:05. According to their initial plan, the civil officers at the square would have dispersed the crowd to ensure their safety. There would be only one criminal investigator left who volunteered to stay by the clown's side in hope to grasp the last chance to save him.

But probably due to panic or having his emotions collapse after suppressing them for so long, the clown has broken free from the criminal investigator and is chasing after the crowd!

"I don't want to die alone! Why do I have to die alone! You guys shouldn't live either!" he shouts as he comes running. The criminal investigator chases after him, but from discovering the clown untill now, it has only been a few minutes, so the square is still filled with people running frantically. The criminal investigator is blocked off by the people and can't chase after him. Therefore, even though the criminal investigator shouts toward him, "We have the passcode, come back!" he can't hear him.

……

"Which direction is he heading?" Han Chen asks in a cold voice.

Chatterbox responds, "Toward Northeast!"

Han Chen hangs up and throws the phone to Su Mian. Su Mian reacts quickly and grabs his wrist, "Which way is Northeast? Are you going there? It's already too late!" If they had 2 minutes left initially, how much do they have left now? 1 minute? 30 seconds?

Han Chen doesn't answer. His pupils are black like ink.

But he doesn't need to answer. Because at the exit of the underground walkway not far away, where there is sunlight shining through, people are panicking suddenly.

"Oh my God! He's coming this way!"

"He's crazy! It's not enough that he dies?! Hurry and run!"

……

"Su Mian, I can't stand and watch someone lose their life in front of my eyes!" Han Chen says these words quickly and fiercely in a deep voice. Before Su Mian can react, he breaks free from her grip, turns around and runs, "You stay here. Don't go anywhere." There's no way for Su Mian to agree, but the people around them have already separated them. She can only see Han Chen's shadow running in the opposite direction of everybody else and is moving farther and farther away from her.

Su Mian curses under her breath. She follows Han Chen and raises her fist at whoever blocks her way. At the same time, she dials for Chatterbox and chases after Han Chen.

"Chatterbox! Han Chen is going to save the clown himself!" she shouts.

On the other end of the phone, Chatterbox and the others go pale, "Don't let him go! The bomb will explode any second now!"

Su Mian feels her heart shaking so hard that her chest is hurting. Seeing that Han Chen has already exited the tunnel and is nowhere to be found, she grits her teeth with tears almost flowing and squeezes her way through.

"Move aside! Move aside! Han Chen!"

……

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Memory Lost — Chapters

Ch.1 Memory Lost - Chapter 1: A Beauty as Always Jun 9 Ch.2 Memory Lost - Chapter 2: Underhanded Tricks Jun 11 Ch.3 Memory Lost - Chapter 3: Forensic Investigator Si Bai Jun 11 Ch.4 Memory Lost - Chapter 4: First Dream Jun 11 Ch.5 Memory Lost - Chapter 5: Criminal Investigator Han Chen Jun 11 Ch.6 Memory Lost - Chapter 6: Beginning of the Battle Jun 11 Ch.7 Memory Lost - Chapter 7: Your Brokenness Jun 11 Ch.8 Memory Lost - Chapter 8: Handsome bastard Jun 11 Ch.9 Memory Lost - Chapter 9: My Capability Jun 11 Ch.10 Memory Lost - Chapter 10: The Suspects Jun 11 Ch.11 Memory Lost - Chapter 11: Between Time and space Jun 11 Ch.12 Memory Lost - Chapter 12: My True Love Jun 11 Ch.13 Memory Lost - Chapter 13: Brother Han the thirteen Jun 11 Ch.14 Memory Lost - Chapter 14: Black Gloves Jun 11 Ch.15 Memory Lost - Chapter 15: His Tenacity Jun 11 Ch.16 Memory Lost - Chapter 16: Obsession + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.17 Memory Lost - Chapter 17: Reflection of Beauty Jun 11 Ch.18 Memory Lost - Chapter 18: Prologue to T Jun 11 Ch.19 Memory Lost - Chapter 19: You Step Forward I Step Back Jun 11 Ch.20 Memory Lost - Chapter 20: So Gentle Jun 11 Ch.21 Memory Lost - Chapter 21: As Cute as Her Jun 11 Ch.22 Memory Lost - Chapter 22: The Sophisticated Me Jun 11 Ch.23 Memory Lost - Chapter 23: Working Together Long Term Jun 11 Ch.24 Memory Lost - Chapter 24: Sniping Heaven Jun 11 Ch.25 Memory Lost - Chapter 25: Jin Xi’s Grief Jun 11 Ch.26 Memory Lost - Chapter 26: A Series of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.27 Memory Lost - Chapter 27: Turbulences in the Background Jun 11 Ch.28 Memory Lost - Chapter 28: Soaring Little Bird Jun 11 Ch.29 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.30 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.31 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.32 Memory Lost - Chapter 30: Drinks for Today + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.33 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.34 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.35 Memory Lost - Chapter 32: My Hero Jun 11 Ch.36 Memory Lost - Chapter 33: Falling into Deep Sleep Together Jun 11 Ch.37 Memory Lost - Chapter 34: Praying Mantis Preying on Cicada Jun 11 Ch.38 Memory Lost - Chapter 35: The Beginning of Death Jun 11 Ch.39 Memory Lost - Chapter 36: Possible Light Jun 11 Ch.40 Memory Lost - Chapter 37: Admiring Heart + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.41 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.42 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.43 Memory Lost - Chapter 39: A Bunch of Idiots Jun 11 Ch.44 Memory Lost - Chapter 40: Him Alone Jun 11 Ch.45 Memory Lost - Chapter 41: T’s Torture Chamber Jun 11 Ch.46 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.47 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.48 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.49 Memory Lost - Chapter 43: Perhaps It’s You Jun 11 Ch.50 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.51 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.52 Memory Lost - Chapter 45: Feelings for Each Other Jun 11 Ch.53 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.54 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.55 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (1 or 2) Jun 11 Ch.56 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (2 of 2) + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.57 Memory Lost - Chapter 48: Come Home with Me Jun 11 Ch.58 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.59 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.60 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.61 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.62 Memory Lost - Chapter 51: Mentally Ill Jun 11 Ch.63 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.64 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.65 Memory Lost - Chapter 53: The Spirit of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.66 Memory Lost - Chapter 54: Painstaking Investigation Jun 11 Ch.67 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.68 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.69 Memory Lost - Chapter 56: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.70 Memory Lost - Chapter 57: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.71 Memory Lost - Chapter 58: My Heart’s Addiction Jun 11 Ch.72 Memory Lost - Chapter 59: His True Face Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.73 Memory Lost - Chapter 60: His True Face Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.74 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.75 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.76 Memory Lost - Chapter 63: As a Monster Jun 11 Ch.77 Memory Lost - Chapter 64: A Gentleman’s Etiquette Jun 11 Ch.78 Memory Lost - Chapter 65: True Lies Jun 11 Ch.79 Memory Lost - Chapter 66: Typical Case Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.80 Memory Lost - Chapter 67: Typical Case Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.81 Memory Lost - Chapter 68: A Profile within the Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.82 Memory Lost - Chapter 69: A Profile within the Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.83 Memory Lost - Chapter 70: Killing by Imitation Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.84 Memory Lost - Chapter 71: Killing by Imitation Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.85 Memory Lost - Chapter 72: Killing by Imitation Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.86 Memory Lost - Chapter 73: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.87 Memory Lost - Chapter 74: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.88 Memory Lost - Chapter 75: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.89 Memory Lost - Chapter 76: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.90 Memory Lost - Chapter 77: The Second Person Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.91 Memory Lost - Chapter 78: The Second Person Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.92 Memory Lost - Chapter 79: Poisonous Beauty Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.93 Memory Lost - Chapter 80: Poisonous Beauty Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.94 Memory Lost - Chapter 81: A Seven Member Organization Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.95 Memory Lost - Chapter 82: A Seven Member Organization Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.96 Memory Lost - Chapter 83: My Beloved Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.97 Memory Lost - Chapter 84: My Beloved Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.98 Memory Lost - Chapter 85: Unmovable Boulder Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.99 Memory Lost - Chapter 86: Unmovable Boulder Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.100 Memory Lost - Chapter 87: My Sorrow Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.101 Memory Lost - Chapter 88: My Sorrow Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.102 Memory Lost - Chapter 89: My Sorrow Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.103 Memory Lost - Chapter 90: Let’s Wait and See Jun 11 Ch.104 Memory Lost - Chapter 91: Don’t Let Go Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.105 Memory Lost - Chapter 92: Don’t Let Go Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.106 Memory Lost - Chapter 93: She Will Not Change Jun 11 Ch.107 Memory Lost - Chapter 94: Imperial Sword Jun 11 Ch.108 Memory Lost - Chapter 95: After a bloody Battle Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.109 Memory Lost - Chapter 96: After a bloody Battle Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.110 Memory Lost - Chapter 97: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.111 Memory Lost - Chapter 98: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.112 Memory Lost - Chapter 99: Fall Into My Trap Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.113 Memory Lost - Chapter 100: Fall Into My Trap Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.114 Memory Lost - Chapter 101: Fall Into My Trap Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.115 Memory Lost - Chapter 102: Fall Into My Trap Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.116 Memory Lost - Chapter 103: The Big Show Begins Jun 11 Ch.117 Memory Lost - Chapter 104: The Third Person Jun 11 Ch.118 Memory Lost - Chapter 105 Jun 11 Ch.119 Memory Lost - Chapter 106: A Jealous Person Jun 11 Ch.120 Memory Lost - Chapter 107: hello, Big Sister Jun 11 Ch.121 Memory Lost - Chapter 108: Life and Death Together Jun 11 Ch.122 Memory Lost - Chapter 109: Here For You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.123 Memory Lost - Chapter 110: Here For You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.124 Memory Lost - Chapter 111: Here For You Part 3 + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.125 Memory Lost - Chapter 112: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.126 Memory Lost - Chapter 113: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.127 Memory Lost - Chapter 114: Like Me This Much Jun 11 Ch.128 Memory Lost - Chapter 115: Until the End of Time Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.129 Memory Lost - Chapter 116: Until the End of Time Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.130 Memory Lost - Chapter 117: Until the End of Time Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.131 Memory Lost - Chapter 118: A’s Song of Sadness Jun 11 Ch.132 Memory Lost - Chapter 119: Milliseconds Apart ← Current Jun 11 Ch.133 Memory Lost - Chapter 120: L’s Invitation Dance Jun 11 Ch.134 Memory Lost - Chapter 121: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.135 Memory Lost - Chapter 122: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.136 Memory Lost - Chapter 123: Beloved Comrades Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.137 Memory Lost - Chapter 124: Beloved Comrades Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.138 Memory Lost - Chapter 125: R’s World Jun 11 Ch.139 Memory Lost - Chapter 126: Born to Die Jun 11 Ch.140 Memory Lost - Chapter 127: Mini Side Stories Jun 11 Ch.141 Memory Lost - Chapter 128: Her Decision Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.142 Memory Lost - Chapter 129: Her Decision Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.143 Memory Lost - Chapter 130: If He Were To Die Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.144 Memory Lost - Chapter 131: If He Were To Die Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.145 Memory Lost - Chapter 132: I Want to Kill Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.146 Memory Lost - Chapter 133: I Want to Kill Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.147 Memory Lost - Chapter 134: A New Sign Jun 11 Ch.148 Memory Lost - Chapter 135: S’s Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.149 Memory Lost - Chapter 136: S’s Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.150 Memory Lost - Chapter 137: My Fear Jun 11 Ch.151 Memory Lost - Chapter 138: The Hazy Morning Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.152 Memory Lost - Chapter 139: The Hazy Morning Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.153 Memory Lost - Chapter 140: The Hazy Morning Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.154 Memory Lost - Chapter 141: The Hazy Morning Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.155 Memory Lost - Chapter 142: Two Worlds Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.156 Memory Lost - Chapter 143: Two Worlds Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.157 Memory Lost - Chapter 144: Two Worlds Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.158 Memory Lost - Chapter 145: Walking in the Dark + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.159 Memory Lost - Chapter 146: Su Mian, My Love Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.160 Memory Lost - Chapter 147: Su Mian My Love Part 2 + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.161 Memory Lost - Chapter 148: For The Sake of You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.162 Memory Lost - Chapter 149: For The Sake of You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.163 Memory Lost - Chapter 150: The Subway of hell Jun 11 Ch.164 Memory Lost - Chapter 151: S’s Spirit + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.165 Memory Lost - Chapter 152: He’s Waiting For You Jun 11 Ch.166 Memory Lost - Chapter 153: Long Time No See Jun 11 Ch.167 Memory Lost - Chapter 154: Never Grief Jun 11 Ch.168 Memory Lost - Chapter 155: King of Guilt Jun 11 Ch.169 Memory Lost - Chapter 156: Cold Like Snow Jun 11 Ch.170 Memory Lost - Chapter 157: What She Wants Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.171 Memory Lost - Chapter 158: What She Wants Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.172 Memory Lost - Chapter 159: Meeting Death Today Jun 11 Ch.173 Memory Lost - Chapter 160: The Spirit of the Police Shield Jun 11 Ch.174 Memory Lost - Chapter 161: After Love Jun 11 Ch.175 Memory Lost - Chapter 162: Same Day Last Year Jun 11