Back Memory Lost - Chapter 87: Memory Lost - Chapter 74: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 2

Chapter 87: Memory Lost - Chapter 74: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 2

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Chapter 74: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 2

In the boundless night, the road is dark with not a single street lamp. Jin Xi leans back on her seat for a while before saying in a raspy voice, "Could it be someone related to the case in the past?"

Han Chen keeps quiet for a moment and then answers, "I will find the person."

Jin Xi turns her head to look at him.

He has a ruthless expression on his face.

His back is against the chair. There's a bit of dirt on his jacket and his shirt collar is slightly open. He has only one hand on the wheel with his eyes looking ahead.

Jin Xi's heart feels a pinch of pain for a second.

It's been a long time since she has seen him like this. The last time he has been this way must have been when they first met in Jiangcheng; when he was still searching endlessly for her. That was the only time when he was like this.

She thinks for a minute and changes the subject, "Situ……"

Han Chen interrupts right after she says the first two characters, "You don't need to say anymore. I know all of it. The cameras were installed by Situ Yi. The sleeping medicine was also from him. Shao Lun has been stalking him multiple times, so it must have caught his attention and he started to monitor and stalk Shao Lun back. He may have also taken part in torturing the victims without Shao Lun knowing. It's just that he wasn't the one who delivered the final stabbing. He also didn't plot out the plan, which is why he was able to pass the lie detector test. I know everything. I've already requested an arrest order and search warrant. You don't need to speak."

Jin Xi is stunned slightly. She lets out a soft "Mm."

The car returns to silence.

Jin Xi truly feels her heart aching tremendously seeing him like this. She speaks softly again, "Han Chen, please don't be like this."

Han Chen doesn't respond. His eyes are looking out the windshield.

Jin Xi stops talking.

After a while, she feels the car slowing down until it stops on the side of the road. And beside the road is a steep hillside.

Jin Xi turns around and looks at him in surprise. But she sees him still looking straight to the front and unsure of what he's thinking. Everywhere around them is dark and quiet; only they are sitting still in the car.

And then he takes off his seatbelt, leans over and pulls her into his embrace. He doesn't dare to use too much force. His hand is only grabbing her waist lightly just to let her face lean against his chest.

Jin Xi's heart softens as she sniffs his scent and says softly, "Don't be unhappy. Look, I'm completely fine."

He keeps quiet for a moment and says, "If anything happened to you, I would be driving the car down this hill right now."

He speaks in a calm voice but it makes Jin Xi's heart shiver.

Drive down.

He means the steep hill beside the road.

She listens to his heart beating and can't find any words to say.

The attack happened too suddenly. It was more shocking than frightening. Now that she survived it, her mind is still going blank. She hasn't been thinking how scary it was. Instead, she swears that she will find this enemy!

But now that she hears Han Chen's words, the feeling of fright rushes into her heart. And the moment this emotion rises, it is like a tidal wave flooding and rippling in her heart.

She feels more and more frightened.

It's not that she's scared of death. As a criminal investigator, she has already put death behind her and is prepared to die on duty.

But she realizes now why she feels so afraid. If that person didn't let go and she ended up dying, what would Han Chen do?

He said he would drive the car down the hill.

"Han Chen……" Jin Xi says almost choking with sobs. She wraps her arms around his neck and kisses his cheek. He continues to be quiet with his head lowered allowing her to kiss him. He rubs his face lightly against her cheek and her soft hair. They comfort each other in silence, but it's difficult to reduce their heartaches.

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At the same time, the other members of the Black Shield Team who are still stationed at the scene, have just received news: Shao Lun has been captured by the police on his way back from work; Situ Yi has also been stopped by the police on the interprovincial highway. They have both been taken back to the station waiting to be interrogated.

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It's already past 10pm as they return home from the hospital.

Jin Xi lies on the bed while listening to the sound of water coming from the bathroom; Han Chen is taking a shower.

She recalls the scattered images and sounds that flashed across her mind before. If it was because of a house fire that caused her to suffocate and lose her memory, then why would Han Chen's voice appear in pieces of her memory?

Or was it just an illusion?

Just as she's deep in her thoughts, Han Chen pushes the door open and comes out. He's wearing only a pair of long cotton pants and is shirtless. His dark short hair is still damp as he walks towards her.

Even though they've already had "physical contact" with each other, seeing him without his shirt on still makes Jin Xi feel a bit awkward. She turns her head away slightly subconsciously and shifts her eyes downward.

She doesn't realize that these subtle movements have already been captured by Han Chen. He sits down pressing one hand against the side of the pillow while staring down at her, "What are you hiding for? I'm not going to touch you tonight." He then strokes the bottom of her chin lightly with one finger as if he's teasing her and checking the bruises on her neck at the same time.

Jin XI lets out an "oh" softly and then says in a calm voice, "You're the one who said that you won't touch me. I actually don't mind. It's just some small bruises."

When it comes to pushing one's luck, the woman in front of him is probably the prime example. Han Chen watches the mischievous and pleased expression filling her eyes. He just can't find it in himself to take advantage of her. He smiles and lies down beside her.

The quiet midnight. The lights are off and the two of them are lying in bed silently. Han Chen's arm is resting on her waist.

After a while, he holds her hands up and kisses them lightly. Jin Xi lets him kiss her fingers, palms, and the back of her hands in the dark night. He then reaches over, hugs her, lowers his head and kisses her long hair.

"Jin Xi."

"Hm?"

"I won't let you go again."

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In the early morning, Han Chen wakes up while Jin Xi still sleeping. He calls Xiao Zhuan. Once Xiao Zhuan arrives, he advises him a bunch of things before leaving the apartment and driving to the station.

In the hazy morning, the office building is quiet whereas the investigators are lying inside the dorm all over the place. Han Chen knows that Situ Yi and Shao Lun have been officially detained and the evidence of their conviction is basically complete. He's not in a hurry to see them. Instead, he casually opens one of the investigators' drawer, fetches half a pack of cigarettes and lighter and walks outside.

The hallway is still, quiet, and spacious. He watches the smoke rise from between his fingers and dissipates into the air. Han Chen lowers his head and inhales from the cigarette. He smiles thinking about Jin Xi. Just wait until he returns home; the second she smells the scent of cigarette, he doesn't know how much she'll nag.

The sound of footsteps can be heard in the hallway.

Han Chen looks up, glances at the person, turns his head around, and continues smoking while looking straight to the front.

Xu Si Bai walks steadily towards him.

He stops when he reaches behind him.

"How is she?" Xu Si Bai asks calmly.

The image of her being hurt yesterday flashes across Xu Si Bai's mind. He takes a deep breath and speaks again, "Protect her well. Don't let her get hurt again."

Han Chen keeps quiet for a moment, inhales his cigarette deeply before tossing the cigarette butt onto the floor and stepping on it.

"You don't need to worry. If anything happens to her again, I can go to hell," he turns around and walks away.

Xu Si Bai watches his back view quietly. He lowers his eyes while feeling the tips of his fingers trembling slightly. He turns around and looks into the sky. The sky is colorful; blue sky, white clouds, and the golden sun. It's lonely yet gentle.

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Memory Lost — Chapters

Ch.1 Memory Lost - Chapter 1: A Beauty as Always Jun 9 Ch.2 Memory Lost - Chapter 2: Underhanded Tricks Jun 11 Ch.3 Memory Lost - Chapter 3: Forensic Investigator Si Bai Jun 11 Ch.4 Memory Lost - Chapter 4: First Dream Jun 11 Ch.5 Memory Lost - Chapter 5: Criminal Investigator Han Chen Jun 11 Ch.6 Memory Lost - Chapter 6: Beginning of the Battle Jun 11 Ch.7 Memory Lost - Chapter 7: Your Brokenness Jun 11 Ch.8 Memory Lost - Chapter 8: Handsome bastard Jun 11 Ch.9 Memory Lost - Chapter 9: My Capability Jun 11 Ch.10 Memory Lost - Chapter 10: The Suspects Jun 11 Ch.11 Memory Lost - Chapter 11: Between Time and space Jun 11 Ch.12 Memory Lost - Chapter 12: My True Love Jun 11 Ch.13 Memory Lost - Chapter 13: Brother Han the thirteen Jun 11 Ch.14 Memory Lost - Chapter 14: Black Gloves Jun 11 Ch.15 Memory Lost - Chapter 15: His Tenacity Jun 11 Ch.16 Memory Lost - Chapter 16: Obsession + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.17 Memory Lost - Chapter 17: Reflection of Beauty Jun 11 Ch.18 Memory Lost - Chapter 18: Prologue to T Jun 11 Ch.19 Memory Lost - Chapter 19: You Step Forward I Step Back Jun 11 Ch.20 Memory Lost - Chapter 20: So Gentle Jun 11 Ch.21 Memory Lost - Chapter 21: As Cute as Her Jun 11 Ch.22 Memory Lost - Chapter 22: The Sophisticated Me Jun 11 Ch.23 Memory Lost - Chapter 23: Working Together Long Term Jun 11 Ch.24 Memory Lost - Chapter 24: Sniping Heaven Jun 11 Ch.25 Memory Lost - Chapter 25: Jin Xi’s Grief Jun 11 Ch.26 Memory Lost - Chapter 26: A Series of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.27 Memory Lost - Chapter 27: Turbulences in the Background Jun 11 Ch.28 Memory Lost - Chapter 28: Soaring Little Bird Jun 11 Ch.29 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.30 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.31 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.32 Memory Lost - Chapter 30: Drinks for Today + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.33 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.34 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.35 Memory Lost - Chapter 32: My Hero Jun 11 Ch.36 Memory Lost - Chapter 33: Falling into Deep Sleep Together Jun 11 Ch.37 Memory Lost - Chapter 34: Praying Mantis Preying on Cicada Jun 11 Ch.38 Memory Lost - Chapter 35: The Beginning of Death Jun 11 Ch.39 Memory Lost - Chapter 36: Possible Light Jun 11 Ch.40 Memory Lost - Chapter 37: Admiring Heart + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.41 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.42 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.43 Memory Lost - Chapter 39: A Bunch of Idiots Jun 11 Ch.44 Memory Lost - Chapter 40: Him Alone Jun 11 Ch.45 Memory Lost - Chapter 41: T’s Torture Chamber Jun 11 Ch.46 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.47 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.48 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.49 Memory Lost - Chapter 43: Perhaps It’s You Jun 11 Ch.50 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.51 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.52 Memory Lost - Chapter 45: Feelings for Each Other Jun 11 Ch.53 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.54 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.55 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (1 or 2) Jun 11 Ch.56 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (2 of 2) + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.57 Memory Lost - Chapter 48: Come Home with Me Jun 11 Ch.58 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.59 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.60 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.61 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.62 Memory Lost - Chapter 51: Mentally Ill Jun 11 Ch.63 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.64 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.65 Memory Lost - Chapter 53: The Spirit of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.66 Memory Lost - Chapter 54: Painstaking Investigation Jun 11 Ch.67 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.68 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.69 Memory Lost - Chapter 56: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.70 Memory Lost - Chapter 57: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.71 Memory Lost - Chapter 58: My Heart’s Addiction Jun 11 Ch.72 Memory Lost - Chapter 59: His True Face Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.73 Memory Lost - Chapter 60: His True Face Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.74 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.75 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.76 Memory Lost - Chapter 63: As a Monster Jun 11 Ch.77 Memory Lost - Chapter 64: A Gentleman’s Etiquette Jun 11 Ch.78 Memory Lost - Chapter 65: True Lies Jun 11 Ch.79 Memory Lost - Chapter 66: Typical Case Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.80 Memory Lost - Chapter 67: Typical Case Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.81 Memory Lost - Chapter 68: A Profile within the Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.82 Memory Lost - Chapter 69: A Profile within the Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.83 Memory Lost - Chapter 70: Killing by Imitation Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.84 Memory Lost - Chapter 71: Killing by Imitation Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.85 Memory Lost - Chapter 72: Killing by Imitation Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.86 Memory Lost - Chapter 73: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.87 Memory Lost - Chapter 74: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 2 ← Current Jun 11 Ch.88 Memory Lost - Chapter 75: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.89 Memory Lost - Chapter 76: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.90 Memory Lost - Chapter 77: The Second Person Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.91 Memory Lost - Chapter 78: The Second Person Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.92 Memory Lost - Chapter 79: Poisonous Beauty Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.93 Memory Lost - Chapter 80: Poisonous Beauty Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.94 Memory Lost - Chapter 81: A Seven Member Organization Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.95 Memory Lost - Chapter 82: A Seven Member Organization Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.96 Memory Lost - Chapter 83: My Beloved Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.97 Memory Lost - Chapter 84: My Beloved Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.98 Memory Lost - Chapter 85: Unmovable Boulder Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.99 Memory Lost - Chapter 86: Unmovable Boulder Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.100 Memory Lost - Chapter 87: My Sorrow Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.101 Memory Lost - Chapter 88: My Sorrow Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.102 Memory Lost - Chapter 89: My Sorrow Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.103 Memory Lost - Chapter 90: Let’s Wait and See Jun 11 Ch.104 Memory Lost - Chapter 91: Don’t Let Go Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.105 Memory Lost - Chapter 92: Don’t Let Go Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.106 Memory Lost - Chapter 93: She Will Not Change Jun 11 Ch.107 Memory Lost - Chapter 94: Imperial Sword Jun 11 Ch.108 Memory Lost - Chapter 95: After a bloody Battle Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.109 Memory Lost - Chapter 96: After a bloody Battle Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.110 Memory Lost - Chapter 97: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.111 Memory Lost - Chapter 98: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.112 Memory Lost - Chapter 99: Fall Into My Trap Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.113 Memory Lost - Chapter 100: Fall Into My Trap Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.114 Memory Lost - Chapter 101: Fall Into My Trap Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.115 Memory Lost - Chapter 102: Fall Into My Trap Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.116 Memory Lost - Chapter 103: The Big Show Begins Jun 11 Ch.117 Memory Lost - Chapter 104: The Third Person Jun 11 Ch.118 Memory Lost - Chapter 105 Jun 11 Ch.119 Memory Lost - Chapter 106: A Jealous Person Jun 11 Ch.120 Memory Lost - Chapter 107: hello, Big Sister Jun 11 Ch.121 Memory Lost - Chapter 108: Life and Death Together Jun 11 Ch.122 Memory Lost - Chapter 109: Here For You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.123 Memory Lost - Chapter 110: Here For You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.124 Memory Lost - Chapter 111: Here For You Part 3 + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.125 Memory Lost - Chapter 112: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.126 Memory Lost - Chapter 113: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.127 Memory Lost - Chapter 114: Like Me This Much Jun 11 Ch.128 Memory Lost - Chapter 115: Until the End of Time Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.129 Memory Lost - Chapter 116: Until the End of Time Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.130 Memory Lost - Chapter 117: Until the End of Time Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.131 Memory Lost - Chapter 118: A’s Song of Sadness Jun 11 Ch.132 Memory Lost - Chapter 119: Milliseconds Apart Jun 11 Ch.133 Memory Lost - Chapter 120: L’s Invitation Dance Jun 11 Ch.134 Memory Lost - Chapter 121: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.135 Memory Lost - Chapter 122: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.136 Memory Lost - Chapter 123: Beloved Comrades Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.137 Memory Lost - Chapter 124: Beloved Comrades Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.138 Memory Lost - Chapter 125: R’s World Jun 11 Ch.139 Memory Lost - Chapter 126: Born to Die Jun 11 Ch.140 Memory Lost - Chapter 127: Mini Side Stories Jun 11 Ch.141 Memory Lost - Chapter 128: Her Decision Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.142 Memory Lost - Chapter 129: Her Decision Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.143 Memory Lost - Chapter 130: If He Were To Die Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.144 Memory Lost - Chapter 131: If He Were To Die Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.145 Memory Lost - Chapter 132: I Want to Kill Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.146 Memory Lost - Chapter 133: I Want to Kill Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.147 Memory Lost - Chapter 134: A New Sign Jun 11 Ch.148 Memory Lost - Chapter 135: S’s Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.149 Memory Lost - Chapter 136: S’s Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.150 Memory Lost - Chapter 137: My Fear Jun 11 Ch.151 Memory Lost - Chapter 138: The Hazy Morning Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.152 Memory Lost - Chapter 139: The Hazy Morning Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.153 Memory Lost - Chapter 140: The Hazy Morning Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.154 Memory Lost - Chapter 141: The Hazy Morning Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.155 Memory Lost - Chapter 142: Two Worlds Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.156 Memory Lost - Chapter 143: Two Worlds Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.157 Memory Lost - Chapter 144: Two Worlds Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.158 Memory Lost - Chapter 145: Walking in the Dark + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.159 Memory Lost - Chapter 146: Su Mian, My Love Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.160 Memory Lost - Chapter 147: Su Mian My Love Part 2 + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.161 Memory Lost - Chapter 148: For The Sake of You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.162 Memory Lost - Chapter 149: For The Sake of You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.163 Memory Lost - Chapter 150: The Subway of hell Jun 11 Ch.164 Memory Lost - Chapter 151: S’s Spirit + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.165 Memory Lost - Chapter 152: He’s Waiting For You Jun 11 Ch.166 Memory Lost - Chapter 153: Long Time No See Jun 11 Ch.167 Memory Lost - Chapter 154: Never Grief Jun 11 Ch.168 Memory Lost - Chapter 155: King of Guilt Jun 11 Ch.169 Memory Lost - Chapter 156: Cold Like Snow Jun 11 Ch.170 Memory Lost - Chapter 157: What She Wants Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.171 Memory Lost - Chapter 158: What She Wants Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.172 Memory Lost - Chapter 159: Meeting Death Today Jun 11 Ch.173 Memory Lost - Chapter 160: The Spirit of the Police Shield Jun 11 Ch.174 Memory Lost - Chapter 161: After Love Jun 11 Ch.175 Memory Lost - Chapter 162: Same Day Last Year Jun 11