Back Memory Lost - Chapter 174: Memory Lost - Chapter 161: After Love

Chapter 174: Memory Lost - Chapter 161: After Love

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Chapter 161: After Love

The first thing Chatterbox sees after waking up is the fire around them and then the smoke stinging his nose. He lets out a few coughs and pushes away the broken seat lying on top of his body.

He’s alive. He’s actually alive. He feels delighted in his heart.

“Boom!” a loud sound numbs his ears. He turns around and sees that one of the train carts has exploded into pieces. He quickly gets up from the ground in fright. The sound of the explosion continues. Even if he doesn’t die this second, he might in the next.

The moment he raises his head, he sees Cold Face lying on the control cabin’s dashboard. His head is covered with blood and he’s not moving. Chatterbox recalls that just seconds before he fainted, Cold Face was still maneuvering the train.

Chatterbox feels cold sweat all over his body, but regardless of whether or not Cold Face is alive, he picks him up and drags him out of the cabin.

F–k! He’s stuck!

The control cabin is deformed from the crash. He’s able to squeeze through the half-open doorway but can’t drag Cold Face through it.

“F–k……F–k……F–k!” he’s panicking like a cat on a hot tin roof. Tears are almost flowing from his eyes, “Cold Face! Wake up, will you!? F–k! We have to hurry and escape! I can’t just leave you behind! Hurry and wake up!”

But at his current state, he can’t assess how badly injured Cold Face is right now. He can only see his abnormally pale face, his hands are extremely cold, and he’s inhaling more than exhaling.

“Ahh——” Chatterbox mourns almost going crazy as he pulls Cold Face with all his might.

“Chatterbox! Cold Face!” a familiar voice shouts suddenly. Chatterbox turns around and sees who it is. The feeling of joy drowns him and he doesn’t know whether to cry or smile——Zhou Xiao Zhuan has led a couple of investigators with him and rushed out of a small door from the tunnel and are running toward him!

“Hurry!” Chatterbox shouts back, “Cold Face is stuck!”

The group rushes over. Two officers break the doorway and pull Cold Face out successfully. Chatterbox watches their solemn and young faces and feels that even if he dies today, he will have no regrets! It’s because this place can explode at any time, yet Xiao Zhuan and the others are risking their lives and not giving up on the slightest bit of hope to save them.

Chatterbox is completely out of energy and seriously injured. Seeing that Cold Face is saved, blackness covers his eyes as he faints and falls to the ground. It gives Xiao Zhuan and the others a fright. They carry the two of them quickly and run back into the small entrance from the tunnel.

They close the door and run for their lives. After just a few steps, they hear the deafening sound of an explosion hurting their ears and causing them to stutter.

A tall and buff officer is carrying Cold Face and Xiao Zhuan is carrying Chatterbox as they continue running. Cold Face is still unconscious and can’t feel the shaking ground or hear the explosion; Chatterbox is probably in a bit of a daze as he asks Xiao Zhuan softly, “The building, is it okay?”

Xiao Zhuan keeps running with his head down and says in a stuffy voice, “Although you guys slowed down the impact by hitting the walls first along the way before crashing into the foundation, the building is collapsing slowly, like just now.”

“F–k,” Chatterbox curses with not much energy.

“The building was constructed too poorly,” Xiao Zhuan answers, “Thank goodness that the people have evacuated to the bridge and not many are injured.”

“Mm,” Chatterbox responds and asks, “Are Leader……and Xiao Bai okay?”

Tears suddenly flow from Xiao Zhuan’s eyes. Once the tears start, he can’t seem to stop them. He carries Chatterbox on his back and continues running and crying.

“They’re fine!” he says stubbornly, “They’ll definitely be fine. Although the building has collapsed, the bridge didn’t explode. Captain Qin said the bridge didn’t explode, which means that Leader and they succeeded. Leader is such an incredible person, isn’t he? They’ll definitely be fine. They will definitely……return!”

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Underground.

The underground that has been buried like a tomb.

The wreckage, broken columns, debris, and flare.

Everywhere is a mess, and everywhere is depressing. The depressing feeling of death.

Two people are lying on an uneven slope embellished with flare.

Both of them are not moving.

Han Chen is lying there. He opens his eyes and the first thing he sees is the wreckage and piles of debris. His eyes are covered with blood, causing his eyelashes to stick together and making it hard for him to open his eyes.

And then he spots R lying on the ground not far away with his eyes opened. Besides the wooden stick on his chest, there’s also a gunshot wound caused by Han Chen. He’s no longer breathing. And the remote is just lying in the middle between them.

Han Chen continues lying down and not move.

He’s in a bit of a daze. But in the haziness, he seems to be able to see Su Mian from many years ago. The white school dormitory building, the gentle covering of the tree canopies. She stands below them wearing a vibrant dress, stars congregate in her eyes as she turns and smiles at him.

Han Chen smiles suddenly. His lips slowly curve into a smile.

He gets up suddenly. After they reunited, Su Mian had once asked him this.

She said: Han Chen, why do you like me so much?

How did he answer?

He said: you’re just pretending to be good after gaining an advantage. I just like you.

I like you since we were that young. A man’s true love is like a blazing yet suppressive fire. Whether it’s separation or being reunited, how do you want me to stop?

In the blurriness, he remembers that day in Jiangcheng suddenly.

On that night, in the room covered in darkness. He was smoking behind the screen feeling annoyed. He thought to himself that he must have searched for her for 1892 days, yet why hadn’t he found her? Why hadn’t she appeared?

And then she appeared in front of him like that. In her clean police uniform and refreshing face. She looked like another person, yet she felt familiar at the same time.

And then he realized that it was the face of the only person he ever loved.

The feeling of tiredness surges in his heart. His body is exhausted and can’t move an inch. He can even feel that the wounds on his body are draining his life away slowly. He wants to close his eyes; he wants to close them just like this. He wants to close them and think about her quietly and think about their lives. Even if they have no future, he never lost her.

…….

Whistle.

A crisp sound of a whistle like an eerie spirit.

It faintly resonates in his ears.

The sound is too faint and weak. He can’t make out whether it’s his illusion or it’s real. Is it his imagination from hearing her calling for him so many times, or is she really here?

“Weeeee——weeeee——” one sound after the other. It’s not clear and it’s hard to make out. It continues relentlessly in the underground covered in darkness.

Tears flow from Han Chen’s eyes suddenly.

And then he opens his eyes slowly. Using all his might, he starts to crawl. Slowly, he starts crawling toward her direction.

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The same sound of the whistle penetrates the dark and enclosed atmosphere.

It wakes up another person.

Another man who’s almost on his last breath of air.

His whole body is covered in blood lying on the ground beneath the foundation. He’s in an endless muddled state of consciousness. His life is drifting away slowly until he hears her whistle blowing.

He opens his eyes and very slowly, his gentle and clear pupils come alive.

Whether it’s seeking for death or life, it’s just a simple decision.

Having her or not having her in the end?

He lies on the ground listening to her blowing the whistle for a long time.

And then he doesn’t move.

He closes his eyes.

He closes his eyes just like this.

……

The one I love. The one I love dearly.

Your whistle gives him encouragement.

It also gives me the determination to die.

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Su Mian’s back is against the hard and cold door. It’s pitch black everywhere. There is not a bit of noise and there are no other people. She doesn’t know how long it has been and she doesn’t know where she is.

She holds onto the whistle and continues blowing on it. Her throat hurts already and her arms are numb from pain. She’s even starting to lose her feelings as she continues to blow onto the whistle one time after the other.

She’ll just continue until she can’t anymore.

She lifts her eyes and sees the endless pit of emptiness. Her tears are already dry. She thinks to herself: they’re probably going to be buried in this underground place and become a pile of bones. And perhaps, they could be buried together.

Just as she’s in the middle of her thoughts, she hears a noise coming from behind her suddenly.

She can hear some sound coming from the other side of the door.

She can’t believe her ears. The whistle falls out of her hand as she turns around and stares at that area of darkness.

In the dark, someone’s hand is searching around the door as the sound of sweeping can be heard.

Someone finally grabs onto the key. In a split second, Su Mian’s world seems to stop in time.

And then she hears the key twisting. The door is pushed open.

She can’t see the person’s face and that person can’t see hers either. She can only hear the person say faintly almost losing his voice, “Su Mian, I’m here.” And then he falls to the ground with a loud “thump.”

Tears rush out of Su Mian’s eyes immediately. She kneels down right away and hugs his body covered in blood.

“Han Chen!”

She embraces him sitting on the ground and cries painfully.

……

In his best time of age, he fell in love with the best girl.

No matter where in the world and no matter life or death, they will never part.

I will always come to your side and find you.

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Memory Lost — Chapters

Ch.1 Memory Lost - Chapter 1: A Beauty as Always Jun 9 Ch.2 Memory Lost - Chapter 2: Underhanded Tricks Jun 11 Ch.3 Memory Lost - Chapter 3: Forensic Investigator Si Bai Jun 11 Ch.4 Memory Lost - Chapter 4: First Dream Jun 11 Ch.5 Memory Lost - Chapter 5: Criminal Investigator Han Chen Jun 11 Ch.6 Memory Lost - Chapter 6: Beginning of the Battle Jun 11 Ch.7 Memory Lost - Chapter 7: Your Brokenness Jun 11 Ch.8 Memory Lost - Chapter 8: Handsome bastard Jun 11 Ch.9 Memory Lost - Chapter 9: My Capability Jun 11 Ch.10 Memory Lost - Chapter 10: The Suspects Jun 11 Ch.11 Memory Lost - Chapter 11: Between Time and space Jun 11 Ch.12 Memory Lost - Chapter 12: My True Love Jun 11 Ch.13 Memory Lost - Chapter 13: Brother Han the thirteen Jun 11 Ch.14 Memory Lost - Chapter 14: Black Gloves Jun 11 Ch.15 Memory Lost - Chapter 15: His Tenacity Jun 11 Ch.16 Memory Lost - Chapter 16: Obsession + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.17 Memory Lost - Chapter 17: Reflection of Beauty Jun 11 Ch.18 Memory Lost - Chapter 18: Prologue to T Jun 11 Ch.19 Memory Lost - Chapter 19: You Step Forward I Step Back Jun 11 Ch.20 Memory Lost - Chapter 20: So Gentle Jun 11 Ch.21 Memory Lost - Chapter 21: As Cute as Her Jun 11 Ch.22 Memory Lost - Chapter 22: The Sophisticated Me Jun 11 Ch.23 Memory Lost - Chapter 23: Working Together Long Term Jun 11 Ch.24 Memory Lost - Chapter 24: Sniping Heaven Jun 11 Ch.25 Memory Lost - Chapter 25: Jin Xi’s Grief Jun 11 Ch.26 Memory Lost - Chapter 26: A Series of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.27 Memory Lost - Chapter 27: Turbulences in the Background Jun 11 Ch.28 Memory Lost - Chapter 28: Soaring Little Bird Jun 11 Ch.29 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.30 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.31 Memory Lost - Chapter 29: T’s Plan (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.32 Memory Lost - Chapter 30: Drinks for Today + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.33 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.34 Memory Lost - Chapter 31: Dearest T (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.35 Memory Lost - Chapter 32: My Hero Jun 11 Ch.36 Memory Lost - Chapter 33: Falling into Deep Sleep Together Jun 11 Ch.37 Memory Lost - Chapter 34: Praying Mantis Preying on Cicada Jun 11 Ch.38 Memory Lost - Chapter 35: The Beginning of Death Jun 11 Ch.39 Memory Lost - Chapter 36: Possible Light Jun 11 Ch.40 Memory Lost - Chapter 37: Admiring Heart + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.41 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.42 Memory Lost - Chapter 38: My Gentleness (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.43 Memory Lost - Chapter 39: A Bunch of Idiots Jun 11 Ch.44 Memory Lost - Chapter 40: Him Alone Jun 11 Ch.45 Memory Lost - Chapter 41: T’s Torture Chamber Jun 11 Ch.46 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (1 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.47 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (2 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.48 Memory Lost - Chapter 42: Confidante (3 of 3) Jun 11 Ch.49 Memory Lost - Chapter 43: Perhaps It’s You Jun 11 Ch.50 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.51 Memory Lost - Chapter 44: Awakening of a Loyal Wolf (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.52 Memory Lost - Chapter 45: Feelings for Each Other Jun 11 Ch.53 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.54 Memory Lost - Chapter 46: The Blurry You (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.55 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (1 or 2) Jun 11 Ch.56 Memory Lost - Chapter 47: Our Promise (2 of 2) + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.57 Memory Lost - Chapter 48: Come Home with Me Jun 11 Ch.58 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.59 Memory Lost - Chapter 49: The Everyday Life of Living Together (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.60 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.61 Memory Lost - Chapter 50: Hand in Hand (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.62 Memory Lost - Chapter 51: Mentally Ill Jun 11 Ch.63 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.64 Memory Lost - Chapter 52: Pure and Passionate Love (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.65 Memory Lost - Chapter 53: The Spirit of Inferences Jun 11 Ch.66 Memory Lost - Chapter 54: Painstaking Investigation Jun 11 Ch.67 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (1 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.68 Memory Lost - Chapter 55: She’s Better Than Me (2 of 2) Jun 11 Ch.69 Memory Lost - Chapter 56: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.70 Memory Lost - Chapter 57: The First Sight of Suspicion Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.71 Memory Lost - Chapter 58: My Heart’s Addiction Jun 11 Ch.72 Memory Lost - Chapter 59: His True Face Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.73 Memory Lost - Chapter 60: His True Face Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.74 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.75 Memory Lost - Chapter 61: Who’s Being a Psycho Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.76 Memory Lost - Chapter 63: As a Monster Jun 11 Ch.77 Memory Lost - Chapter 64: A Gentleman’s Etiquette Jun 11 Ch.78 Memory Lost - Chapter 65: True Lies Jun 11 Ch.79 Memory Lost - Chapter 66: Typical Case Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.80 Memory Lost - Chapter 67: Typical Case Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.81 Memory Lost - Chapter 68: A Profile within the Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.82 Memory Lost - Chapter 69: A Profile within the Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.83 Memory Lost - Chapter 70: Killing by Imitation Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.84 Memory Lost - Chapter 71: Killing by Imitation Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.85 Memory Lost - Chapter 72: Killing by Imitation Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.86 Memory Lost - Chapter 73: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.87 Memory Lost - Chapter 74: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.88 Memory Lost - Chapter 75: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.89 Memory Lost - Chapter 76: Giving Up Love for the Rest of Life Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.90 Memory Lost - Chapter 77: The Second Person Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.91 Memory Lost - Chapter 78: The Second Person Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.92 Memory Lost - Chapter 79: Poisonous Beauty Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.93 Memory Lost - Chapter 80: Poisonous Beauty Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.94 Memory Lost - Chapter 81: A Seven Member Organization Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.95 Memory Lost - Chapter 82: A Seven Member Organization Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.96 Memory Lost - Chapter 83: My Beloved Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.97 Memory Lost - Chapter 84: My Beloved Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.98 Memory Lost - Chapter 85: Unmovable Boulder Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.99 Memory Lost - Chapter 86: Unmovable Boulder Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.100 Memory Lost - Chapter 87: My Sorrow Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.101 Memory Lost - Chapter 88: My Sorrow Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.102 Memory Lost - Chapter 89: My Sorrow Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.103 Memory Lost - Chapter 90: Let’s Wait and See Jun 11 Ch.104 Memory Lost - Chapter 91: Don’t Let Go Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.105 Memory Lost - Chapter 92: Don’t Let Go Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.106 Memory Lost - Chapter 93: She Will Not Change Jun 11 Ch.107 Memory Lost - Chapter 94: Imperial Sword Jun 11 Ch.108 Memory Lost - Chapter 95: After a bloody Battle Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.109 Memory Lost - Chapter 96: After a bloody Battle Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.110 Memory Lost - Chapter 97: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.111 Memory Lost - Chapter 98: Three Person from Day Till Night Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.112 Memory Lost - Chapter 99: Fall Into My Trap Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.113 Memory Lost - Chapter 100: Fall Into My Trap Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.114 Memory Lost - Chapter 101: Fall Into My Trap Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.115 Memory Lost - Chapter 102: Fall Into My Trap Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.116 Memory Lost - Chapter 103: The Big Show Begins Jun 11 Ch.117 Memory Lost - Chapter 104: The Third Person Jun 11 Ch.118 Memory Lost - Chapter 105 Jun 11 Ch.119 Memory Lost - Chapter 106: A Jealous Person Jun 11 Ch.120 Memory Lost - Chapter 107: hello, Big Sister Jun 11 Ch.121 Memory Lost - Chapter 108: Life and Death Together Jun 11 Ch.122 Memory Lost - Chapter 109: Here For You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.123 Memory Lost - Chapter 110: Here For You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.124 Memory Lost - Chapter 111: Here For You Part 3 + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.125 Memory Lost - Chapter 112: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.126 Memory Lost - Chapter 113: Persist With Your Original Intentions Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.127 Memory Lost - Chapter 114: Like Me This Much Jun 11 Ch.128 Memory Lost - Chapter 115: Until the End of Time Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.129 Memory Lost - Chapter 116: Until the End of Time Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.130 Memory Lost - Chapter 117: Until the End of Time Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.131 Memory Lost - Chapter 118: A’s Song of Sadness Jun 11 Ch.132 Memory Lost - Chapter 119: Milliseconds Apart Jun 11 Ch.133 Memory Lost - Chapter 120: L’s Invitation Dance Jun 11 Ch.134 Memory Lost - Chapter 121: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.135 Memory Lost - Chapter 122: The Secret In Your Eyes Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.136 Memory Lost - Chapter 123: Beloved Comrades Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.137 Memory Lost - Chapter 124: Beloved Comrades Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.138 Memory Lost - Chapter 125: R’s World Jun 11 Ch.139 Memory Lost - Chapter 126: Born to Die Jun 11 Ch.140 Memory Lost - Chapter 127: Mini Side Stories Jun 11 Ch.141 Memory Lost - Chapter 128: Her Decision Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.142 Memory Lost - Chapter 129: Her Decision Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.143 Memory Lost - Chapter 130: If He Were To Die Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.144 Memory Lost - Chapter 131: If He Were To Die Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.145 Memory Lost - Chapter 132: I Want to Kill Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.146 Memory Lost - Chapter 133: I Want to Kill Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.147 Memory Lost - Chapter 134: A New Sign Jun 11 Ch.148 Memory Lost - Chapter 135: S’s Profile Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.149 Memory Lost - Chapter 136: S’s Profile Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.150 Memory Lost - Chapter 137: My Fear Jun 11 Ch.151 Memory Lost - Chapter 138: The Hazy Morning Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.152 Memory Lost - Chapter 139: The Hazy Morning Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.153 Memory Lost - Chapter 140: The Hazy Morning Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.154 Memory Lost - Chapter 141: The Hazy Morning Part 4 Jun 11 Ch.155 Memory Lost - Chapter 142: Two Worlds Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.156 Memory Lost - Chapter 143: Two Worlds Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.157 Memory Lost - Chapter 144: Two Worlds Part 3 Jun 11 Ch.158 Memory Lost - Chapter 145: Walking in the Dark + mini side stories Jun 11 Ch.159 Memory Lost - Chapter 146: Su Mian, My Love Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.160 Memory Lost - Chapter 147: Su Mian My Love Part 2 + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.161 Memory Lost - Chapter 148: For The Sake of You Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.162 Memory Lost - Chapter 149: For The Sake of You Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.163 Memory Lost - Chapter 150: The Subway of hell Jun 11 Ch.164 Memory Lost - Chapter 151: S’s Spirit + mini side story Jun 11 Ch.165 Memory Lost - Chapter 152: He’s Waiting For You Jun 11 Ch.166 Memory Lost - Chapter 153: Long Time No See Jun 11 Ch.167 Memory Lost - Chapter 154: Never Grief Jun 11 Ch.168 Memory Lost - Chapter 155: King of Guilt Jun 11 Ch.169 Memory Lost - Chapter 156: Cold Like Snow Jun 11 Ch.170 Memory Lost - Chapter 157: What She Wants Part 1 Jun 11 Ch.171 Memory Lost - Chapter 158: What She Wants Part 2 Jun 11 Ch.172 Memory Lost - Chapter 159: Meeting Death Today Jun 11 Ch.173 Memory Lost - Chapter 160: The Spirit of the Police Shield Jun 11 Ch.174 Memory Lost - Chapter 161: After Love ← Current Jun 11 Ch.175 Memory Lost - Chapter 162: Same Day Last Year Jun 11